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Why does everything have to be so crazy? Right now, all I need is 4 years to pass like the trees on the interstate. That's all I want. 4 years is a breath compared to the 100 I have on this earth and the eternity I have in heaven. So, why is 4 years taking so long? Just answer this...Is that ironic or what?
BOAT needs to come faster.
CAN'T LOOK INTO YOUR EYES
I can't look into your eyes
without seeing the lies
hidden behind them
I can't watch her mouth move
without hearing the gossip
and critisim that she doesn't
realize is flowing from it
I can't sit in the movies
without fearing the things
you'll say afterward
It's horrid,
knowing everything will explode
behind me when I walk out the door
for the last time
It's the only reason I don't
want to leave
It's the only reason I hold my
tongue when you tell me to be
perfect
I'm not perfect
I can't look into your eyes
without seeing the little girl
trapped inside
It scares me
I can't walk
without feeling your hot eyes
glued to my back
I can't write freely
without thinking,"Will she find
it?"
"Will she hate it?"
"Will she lecture me for
the honest feelings I share?"
Yes, she will
That's why I hide
that's why 4 years are moving so slow
That's why I can't look into your eyes
with a straight face
anymore than I can look into mine
without seeing a look a pain plastered onto my face
Sorry LJ friends...Today was a horrible day and I have concluded I cannot write in this LJ anymore. I can't stand not being able to write freely. So, I am getting a FREEWEB...But, it's just gonna be for me.
I'm sick of hiding my feelings. And I need someway to express them without everyone looking over my shoulder constantly. I'm sorry guys. But, this will be my last entry in here.
And everything is too crazy to explain, so don't ask.
Pyscho...Call me and I'll explain everything.
I'll luv you forever guys...
REBAaaaaa
BOAT needs to come faster.
CAN'T LOOK INTO YOUR EYES
I can't look into your eyes
without seeing the lies
hidden behind them
I can't watch her mouth move
without hearing the gossip
and critisim that she doesn't
realize is flowing from it
I can't sit in the movies
without fearing the things
you'll say afterward
It's horrid,
knowing everything will explode
behind me when I walk out the door
for the last time
It's the only reason I don't
want to leave
It's the only reason I hold my
tongue when you tell me to be
perfect
I'm not perfect
I can't look into your eyes
without seeing the little girl
trapped inside
It scares me
I can't walk
without feeling your hot eyes
glued to my back
I can't write freely
without thinking,"Will she find
it?"
"Will she hate it?"
"Will she lecture me for
the honest feelings I share?"
Yes, she will
That's why I hide
that's why 4 years are moving so slow
That's why I can't look into your eyes
with a straight face
anymore than I can look into mine
without seeing a look a pain plastered onto my face
Sorry LJ friends...Today was a horrible day and I have concluded I cannot write in this LJ anymore. I can't stand not being able to write freely. So, I am getting a FREEWEB...But, it's just gonna be for me.
I'm sick of hiding my feelings. And I need someway to express them without everyone looking over my shoulder constantly. I'm sorry guys. But, this will be my last entry in here.
And everything is too crazy to explain, so don't ask.
Pyscho...Call me and I'll explain everything.
I'll luv you forever guys...
REBAaaaaa