ok so i am a dork
ever get one of those feelings that you dont belong here and you are alone in the world with your thoughts... well thats how i usually feel, so i read and finally i found something that made me feel like im not alone in the world(this is from the book the perks of being of being a wallflower):
"i finished the book and then started immediately reading it again. anything to not feel like crying...
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. that you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. or just not exist. or just not be aware that you do exist. or something like that. i think wanting that is very morbid, but i want it when i get like this. that's why i'm trying not to think. i just want it all to stop spinning."
"i guess what i'm saying is that this all feels very familiar. but it's not mine to be familiar about. i just know that another kid has felt this. this one time when it's peaceful outside, and you're seeing things move, and you don't want to, and everyone is asleep. and all the books you've read have been read by other people. and all the songs you've loved have been heard by other people. and that girl that's pretty to you is pretty to other people. and you know that if you looked at these facts when you were happy, you would feel great because you are describing 'unity'.
it's like when you are excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. and other times you see the same couple, and they make you so mad. and all you want is to always to feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means that you're happy too."
"i don't know how much longer i can keep going without a friend. I used to be able to do it very easily, but that was before i knew what having a feiend was like. it's much easier not to know things sometimes."
"we are who we are for a lot of reasons. and maybe we'll never know most of them. but even if we don't have the power to choosed where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. we can still do things. and we can try to feel okay about them."
"i don't think i have it any better or worse. i don't know. it's just different. maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, i think that the only perspective is to really be there."
*if anyone who reads this can relate to at least one of these quotes please comment on it, so i dont feel crazy.*
"i finished the book and then started immediately reading it again. anything to not feel like crying...
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. that you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. or just not exist. or just not be aware that you do exist. or something like that. i think wanting that is very morbid, but i want it when i get like this. that's why i'm trying not to think. i just want it all to stop spinning."
"i guess what i'm saying is that this all feels very familiar. but it's not mine to be familiar about. i just know that another kid has felt this. this one time when it's peaceful outside, and you're seeing things move, and you don't want to, and everyone is asleep. and all the books you've read have been read by other people. and all the songs you've loved have been heard by other people. and that girl that's pretty to you is pretty to other people. and you know that if you looked at these facts when you were happy, you would feel great because you are describing 'unity'.
it's like when you are excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. and other times you see the same couple, and they make you so mad. and all you want is to always to feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means that you're happy too."
"i don't know how much longer i can keep going without a friend. I used to be able to do it very easily, but that was before i knew what having a feiend was like. it's much easier not to know things sometimes."
"we are who we are for a lot of reasons. and maybe we'll never know most of them. but even if we don't have the power to choosed where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. we can still do things. and we can try to feel okay about them."
"i don't think i have it any better or worse. i don't know. it's just different. maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, i think that the only perspective is to really be there."
*if anyone who reads this can relate to at least one of these quotes please comment on it, so i dont feel crazy.*