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Last year at just about this time I went on my date with Matt. And in the post right after I said, "If you want something bad enough you have to fight for it. And I want him. Bad."
It's interesting, now a year later, to look back on that. Because I still want him, more than ever before. But we are also closer friends than we ever were since I told him I didn't like him anymore. Well, turns out that was a complete lie.
And I love being friends with him. I think it was actually the best decision I made in telling him that I was over him, especially since I believed it to be true at the time. But in becoming closer to him I like him even more. I wish he could see that, somehow. We could make a really great couple. It also always seems like we grow closer in the spring, maybe it's something to do with the weather, or maybe just that is isn't as busy because there's no football on weekends.
We talk online for hours, we went to Rita's with two other friends on Friday for about two hours and half and just talked. He drives me home every week after Harry Potter meetings (last night was the last one ... sigh) I'll see him on Sat at the picnic for the club, next Wednesday at salsa dancing (which he really wanted me to go to this week, but I have too much work) and he's trying to get me to stay at school until next friday instead of thursday because he invited me over Thursday night to hang out. All he needs to do is kiss me once and a while and we'd be a couple.
Oh well ... I honsetly don't even have time to be typing this I am so busy this week. Strrrreeesssss. But it'll all be over next Tuesday after my two finals and I am not too worried about those.
Good luck on all your finals! And if you want to ignore this post that's totally fine because I'm really just complaining about nothing and just needed to vent a bit.
It's interesting, now a year later, to look back on that. Because I still want him, more than ever before. But we are also closer friends than we ever were since I told him I didn't like him anymore. Well, turns out that was a complete lie.
And I love being friends with him. I think it was actually the best decision I made in telling him that I was over him, especially since I believed it to be true at the time. But in becoming closer to him I like him even more. I wish he could see that, somehow. We could make a really great couple. It also always seems like we grow closer in the spring, maybe it's something to do with the weather, or maybe just that is isn't as busy because there's no football on weekends.
We talk online for hours, we went to Rita's with two other friends on Friday for about two hours and half and just talked. He drives me home every week after Harry Potter meetings (last night was the last one ... sigh) I'll see him on Sat at the picnic for the club, next Wednesday at salsa dancing (which he really wanted me to go to this week, but I have too much work) and he's trying to get me to stay at school until next friday instead of thursday because he invited me over Thursday night to hang out. All he needs to do is kiss me once and a while and we'd be a couple.
Oh well ... I honsetly don't even have time to be typing this I am so busy this week. Strrrreeesssss. But it'll all be over next Tuesday after my two finals and I am not too worried about those.
Good luck on all your finals! And if you want to ignore this post that's totally fine because I'm really just complaining about nothing and just needed to vent a bit.