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bleh. :/
I wanna move,
move out of livermore,
move schools,
move away from all the people here
and start all over.
everyone has big groups of friends
while I sit back and only call
two people my "friends" and mean it.
I dont fit in around here and I hate it,
for some reason I always feel left
out and Im best friends with two
beautiful girls to be compared too
and have zero self confidence.
I feel like everyone I talk to or
hang around with all talk behind my back
and dont really like me and I hate that feeling.
While I sat online tonight at 1230 at night, I hear my
mom laying in bed, crying and I knew excatly why, shes
scared of dying and is hurting so much inside and while I sat and listen to her cry, tears just rolled down my face, knowing
that if she wasnt in my life, me and my whole life ahead of me would fall apart. No one would be there to tell me "good job tara" or anything to keep me going, no one would be there to help me with my problems, or there to answer my questions. :(.
I wanna move,
move out of livermore,
move schools,
move away from all the people here
and start all over.
everyone has big groups of friends
while I sit back and only call
two people my "friends" and mean it.
I dont fit in around here and I hate it,
for some reason I always feel left
out and Im best friends with two
beautiful girls to be compared too
and have zero self confidence.
I feel like everyone I talk to or
hang around with all talk behind my back
and dont really like me and I hate that feeling.
While I sat online tonight at 1230 at night, I hear my
mom laying in bed, crying and I knew excatly why, shes
scared of dying and is hurting so much inside and while I sat and listen to her cry, tears just rolled down my face, knowing
that if she wasnt in my life, me and my whole life ahead of me would fall apart. No one would be there to tell me "good job tara" or anything to keep me going, no one would be there to help me with my problems, or there to answer my questions. :(.