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This is probably the weirdest week. Let's start with my dream last night: a small monkey and a large monkey both tried to rape me in order to keep their species going. Apparently, my genes are monkey-compatible. Anthony Kiedis was next to me the entire time and he stopped the monkeys only after I had to beg him. He told me to get over myself. Then, I got arrested for something my father's company did. Don't worry though, upon entering prison you get to stop at the prison gift shop to get a souvenir to remember the good times you had in prison. Just remembered this bit, in the dream somebody told me that one cigarette is worth three candy bars and my biggest upset about being taken to prison was that I wouldn't be able to have my bangs trimmed for 11 months.
I've spent the past couple of days in such a funk about what happened on Sunday. I felt like a horrible person for just getting up and leaving the hotel room without saying goodbye to Mike (that was his name) or sorry. I don't know, and then last night I just had all of these revelations about what love even means and how everyone is selfish and nothing matters. It's just having somebody else meet your needs while meeting theirs and I know it's not love or anything, but Mike had perfectly met my needs that night without even knowing what I needed and I feel like I didn't and couldn't return that for him because I was too self-centered. Yeah, I know I'm probably just crazy and pulling stuff out but I can say confidently that I know I can't be with anyone right now and I don't want to be, but I wish I didn't know what it felt like and I wish I didn't know what it is I'm missing.
My Free Will Astrology horoscope this week is real crazy too.
I've spent the past couple of days in such a funk about what happened on Sunday. I felt like a horrible person for just getting up and leaving the hotel room without saying goodbye to Mike (that was his name) or sorry. I don't know, and then last night I just had all of these revelations about what love even means and how everyone is selfish and nothing matters. It's just having somebody else meet your needs while meeting theirs and I know it's not love or anything, but Mike had perfectly met my needs that night without even knowing what I needed and I feel like I didn't and couldn't return that for him because I was too self-centered. Yeah, I know I'm probably just crazy and pulling stuff out but I can say confidently that I know I can't be with anyone right now and I don't want to be, but I wish I didn't know what it felt like and I wish I didn't know what it is I'm missing.
My Free Will Astrology horoscope this week is real crazy too.