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I feel so weird lately. I have these nostalgic high schooly type feeligns mixed with a feeling like I need a home of my own as my dorm room can hardly be considered homey and I don't feel at home in my house in Brooklyn anymore. I really cannot wait to move off campus. I had a couple hours to myself yesterday and I took a shower, cleaned up a little bit, and listened to music I hadn't listened to in ages and I felt really good. Lately I get the feeling that Ben is feeling too tied down because we practically live together and are together a whole lot, which I feel too to some extent. I don't know how to be with him less when it's he who comes to me and when he's leaving in a couple weeks and I feel like I need to absorb enough of him to last until summer. I just can't imagine what not having him around is going to be like. I block out the fact that he's leaving most of the time. I just feel so full of conflict! Less pressing news is that I got a haircut, but it's more like a trim and some different layers. Billy drank most of my bottle of Black Haus and I'm kind of pissed about it. I went sledding on this amazing hill with Ben, Ryan, and Jenna. It was pretty terrible to walk back up but it was absolutely beautiful and secluded and huge. I love Wisconsin.