when i use the words "you" im trying to encompass everyone, but it might be easier to view it as "i"
as always, i have a lot to say in terms of catching up which entails all that minimal shit like what ive been up to for the past 2 weeks or what not, but the only thing that those 2 weeks, or time for that matter is worth is what you learn from it. anyway thats my introduction (a sorry excuse in hopes that u can forgive my laziness with this thing).
i think im coming to grips with just how idealistic my outlook on relationships(if so a small category)/people/whatever you want to call it has been. i just thought that although attraction (in terms of physical appearence) was determined by subjective reasons, that ones personality could be based on a more objective approach. in other words, why cant one person's disposition just be perfect for everyone...you know, regardless of "what their type is" etc etc, that there could be one person where those barriers were just irrelevant. but i guess that theory is completely inane now that its written down (and of course that blip of an explanation doesnt give it the justice it deserves). that might be why i really have a hard time with random hook ups that dont amount to anything later on...b/c for whatever reason it seems as though that girl(or whatever gender)wasnt one of those individuals who could be everything for that other person. i mean u might be a good hook up, but why arnt you a good intellectual fuck? shit i donno what i just said, and thats good b/c theres no answer to the above, and im glad the relevance of that afformentioned theory if u will, just goes in and out of my head...b/c sometimes the only way to prevent myself from overanalyzing stuff like that is just to say "whatever" i mean that word just sums the apathy that seems to be the antidote for a lot up real well.
whatever. maybe ill clarify sometime.
on a side note im feeling really sweet.
and its really odd b/c ive become significantly more pratical with my shopping.
b/c ive been packing for camp ive realized what an absurd amount of clothing that i like i have (and no im not bragging, i think its all quite pathetic, hence my new outlook) and b/c ive never taken out a lot of it and looked at it sorta thing i didnt realize it, or osmetihng i dont fucking know...but anyway, it was kinda comforting b/c i was at urban today and i tried on some stuff and i was just like dude i dont NEED this. and then i had to return this skirt to hollister today and i was looking to exchange it for something, but *gasp* i was like chelz why dont u pick out something i dont really need anything. this is a completely worthless side note, but it just sorta feels cleansing.
alright so honestly heres why im stopping writing for tonight
1. its late and im not thinking well
2. i think degrassi's coming on
3. i wrote 1 thing that was really analytical and 1 thing that was really superficial, and if i continued id probably write something that fell into either one of the 2 categories and i dont think i could bear either one...and i doubt you could.
dude lifes just neat
Alli
i think im coming to grips with just how idealistic my outlook on relationships(if so a small category)/people/whatever you want to call it has been. i just thought that although attraction (in terms of physical appearence) was determined by subjective reasons, that ones personality could be based on a more objective approach. in other words, why cant one person's disposition just be perfect for everyone...you know, regardless of "what their type is" etc etc, that there could be one person where those barriers were just irrelevant. but i guess that theory is completely inane now that its written down (and of course that blip of an explanation doesnt give it the justice it deserves). that might be why i really have a hard time with random hook ups that dont amount to anything later on...b/c for whatever reason it seems as though that girl(or whatever gender)wasnt one of those individuals who could be everything for that other person. i mean u might be a good hook up, but why arnt you a good intellectual fuck? shit i donno what i just said, and thats good b/c theres no answer to the above, and im glad the relevance of that afformentioned theory if u will, just goes in and out of my head...b/c sometimes the only way to prevent myself from overanalyzing stuff like that is just to say "whatever" i mean that word just sums the apathy that seems to be the antidote for a lot up real well.
whatever. maybe ill clarify sometime.
on a side note im feeling really sweet.
and its really odd b/c ive become significantly more pratical with my shopping.
b/c ive been packing for camp ive realized what an absurd amount of clothing that i like i have (and no im not bragging, i think its all quite pathetic, hence my new outlook) and b/c ive never taken out a lot of it and looked at it sorta thing i didnt realize it, or osmetihng i dont fucking know...but anyway, it was kinda comforting b/c i was at urban today and i tried on some stuff and i was just like dude i dont NEED this. and then i had to return this skirt to hollister today and i was looking to exchange it for something, but *gasp* i was like chelz why dont u pick out something i dont really need anything. this is a completely worthless side note, but it just sorta feels cleansing.
alright so honestly heres why im stopping writing for tonight
1. its late and im not thinking well
2. i think degrassi's coming on
3. i wrote 1 thing that was really analytical and 1 thing that was really superficial, and if i continued id probably write something that fell into either one of the 2 categories and i dont think i could bear either one...and i doubt you could.
dude lifes just neat
Alli