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Ugh, I still cannot believe she's gone. Just receiving that call with the news of my mother's passing and just how sudden it was, is still just a huge shock. I thought she had more time, I thought I was going to be able to at least spend one more Christmas or Thanksgiving with her and the rest of my family. But I'll never get to have another experience like that with her ever again.
Now I cannot help but see any and every little thing completely different now, no matter what it is. Just being alone makes me think about how I'll never see her again, and I guess that's only natural, I'm experiencing the most difficult point in my life right now and I'm sure everyone handles stuff like this differently.
I've been doing my best to keep myself occupied for right now until I know when I will be making the drive up to Amarillo for her funeral. Spending time with friends and other loved ones has really helped, almost to a point of where I've completely forgotten that she had passed on, but then the first moment I'm alone, I start breaking down again.
I just want to let you know that I will always love you mother, and I will miss you. :( And I will do my best to make you proud!
Now I cannot help but see any and every little thing completely different now, no matter what it is. Just being alone makes me think about how I'll never see her again, and I guess that's only natural, I'm experiencing the most difficult point in my life right now and I'm sure everyone handles stuff like this differently.
I've been doing my best to keep myself occupied for right now until I know when I will be making the drive up to Amarillo for her funeral. Spending time with friends and other loved ones has really helped, almost to a point of where I've completely forgotten that she had passed on, but then the first moment I'm alone, I start breaking down again.
I just want to let you know that I will always love you mother, and I will miss you. :( And I will do my best to make you proud!