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I don't read anyone elses journal on here, sometimes it makes me sad that I don't see my friends anymore. But I will post so that people will know what I'm up to, even though it is sad. So, to start off, I am living off chips and salsa and smoking cigarettes out of ashtrays because I have no money. My car is almost out of gas for the last time, and I am sad to think that it will just be on the side of the road somewhere. My kitties are gone, and I still haven't found a subleaser for my apt yet. I can't afford my bills, so who knows how long I will have lights or even internet. I am going home on wednesday so my mom can go with me to get new tires on my car using my money that is being held for ransom by my fascist father. I hope that my mom takes me out to dinner for real food that is not a form of carb. She said she'd fill my tank to get me back to school, which will help when I am out looking for a job for the second week in a row without luck. I have been waiting a month for unemployment, and it'll still be another week until I even find out if I can get it. It's only $50 a week or two, but at least that will help me with the bills, and even buy some food. I can't afford Christmas presents which isn't a big deal but I hate that I can't do anything nice for people over the holiday. I cry myself to sleep every night, and I barely sleep. Things have become so difficult to manage and I thank god school's over. I keep driving through town and it's completely dead. I managed to find things to do this weekend though...hung out with tyana saturday night when I dropped of my cats, then we went to her friend Janel's who was really awesome. She chain smoked between bongs and made us apple pancakes. I crashed at tyana's so i knew my kitties were ok. We watched a movie and ate pizza after we walked her dogs, then I went to Holly and Lucy's before we went to the bar for Holly's 21st. It was a lot of fun even though it was dead. but, we went to leslie's after to smoke delicious smelling goodness. then I came home and stayed up til 6, woke up at 11:30, did some apps, went to see the career counsellor and got to talk with shiraz too. That was good. But overall, I don't really know what to think of things, especially after friday and saturday nights. I can't believe that happened...it was like someone ripped the cane right out from under me.