lol i don't even know why i'm living anymore...
So I've become homeless again. Our bastard new roommate complained about me living here downstairs & this started a ton of faults that led to me getting josh evicted from malibu. everybody keeps telling me it's not my fault & that it's the new guy's or the management but i know it's me for being here in the first place. so i'm going to move in to geki's place & crash on his couch til i find an apartment of my own i can lease or sublease. I've hit rockbottom again & have been tearing myself a new one ever since. Mentally battered myself about how god hates me & how i fail at everything & have even bust up my right hand pretty good consistently punching the shower wall. going through constant mood swings or crying to sarcasm to self-loathing. i've pretty much lost any hope i had for myself & now just wanna curl up & die sooooooo bad. crystal keeps trying to cheer me up & i wanna believe her but i've just been knocked down too many times to believe in anything anymore. i dunno, just gonna go do i dunno what. nothing matters anymore...