another day
Well, Alex's party last night had it's ups and downs. I suppose that is how it is with alot of parties, but its been so long since i've partied I can't remember. Anyway, yeah... alot of BS drama that really didnt need to be going on but did anyway.
I had a big opportunity to get drunk... But I didn't take it. I came to the realization (when Jasper and I were out on the deck talking after an incident) that I have responsibilities, maturity and personal standards to uphold... I can sit and drink all night, but it's over time. Not get drunk. I'd enjoy myself much more that way.
I also thought about another thing while I was trying to make up a new song last night on guitar... Do nice guys really finish last? It seems so ironic... everyday you'll hear 10 girls complain about not having a "nice guy" and wanting one like it's a big rarity. 1 out of 10 of those girls might find the nice guy, the other 9 will sit and wonder where those quality guys are and never figure it out. We're out here, no lie. When a guy is always nice to you, wants to do things for you, gives you advice (even if it is about another guy) , looks out for you, wants to spend time with you, doesnt just want to have sex with you and actually likes you for who you are... give him a shot . He might just be a genuinely nice guy. Thats the problem I think, people need to expand their options and get out of their box.
Shelly and I are still workin on being friends. It's rough, and we got into a little fight last night but I said what I needed to say, as did she, and we're aight now I suppose.
I almost hate to say it, but from time to time i've felt pretty shitty. It's almost as if i'm alot more depressed lately. I think it's because of some things that are happening right now with some friends, plus the stress from graduating, working two jobs, exams and not knowing my grades, not really knowing anything for spring break which is in a month, not knowing who i'm going to prom with or if i'm just going by myself... etc.
Spring break makes me upset... theres a few people I want to go with, that i'm sure are doing their own things anyway, and I know if they didnt go it wouldnt be as fun for me as it would be if they did. Thats just me though, I guess. That leaves me with Jerry, Kim and myself though for spring break. Right.
Prom... Well, i've actually asked someone already but thats still up in the air. I'm obviously going, the question is just with who. Or by myself? What am I doing, taking a limo with friends? taking the good ol Dodge Challenger? I don't know, but thats another thing thats buggin me.
Maybe I'm not enjoying being single that much, after all. Maybe.
I had a big opportunity to get drunk... But I didn't take it. I came to the realization (when Jasper and I were out on the deck talking after an incident) that I have responsibilities, maturity and personal standards to uphold... I can sit and drink all night, but it's over time. Not get drunk. I'd enjoy myself much more that way.
I also thought about another thing while I was trying to make up a new song last night on guitar... Do nice guys really finish last? It seems so ironic... everyday you'll hear 10 girls complain about not having a "nice guy" and wanting one like it's a big rarity. 1 out of 10 of those girls might find the nice guy, the other 9 will sit and wonder where those quality guys are and never figure it out. We're out here, no lie. When a guy is always nice to you, wants to do things for you, gives you advice (even if it is about another guy) , looks out for you, wants to spend time with you, doesnt just want to have sex with you and actually likes you for who you are... give him a shot . He might just be a genuinely nice guy. Thats the problem I think, people need to expand their options and get out of their box.
Shelly and I are still workin on being friends. It's rough, and we got into a little fight last night but I said what I needed to say, as did she, and we're aight now I suppose.
I almost hate to say it, but from time to time i've felt pretty shitty. It's almost as if i'm alot more depressed lately. I think it's because of some things that are happening right now with some friends, plus the stress from graduating, working two jobs, exams and not knowing my grades, not really knowing anything for spring break which is in a month, not knowing who i'm going to prom with or if i'm just going by myself... etc.
Spring break makes me upset... theres a few people I want to go with, that i'm sure are doing their own things anyway, and I know if they didnt go it wouldnt be as fun for me as it would be if they did. Thats just me though, I guess. That leaves me with Jerry, Kim and myself though for spring break. Right.
Prom... Well, i've actually asked someone already but thats still up in the air. I'm obviously going, the question is just with who. Or by myself? What am I doing, taking a limo with friends? taking the good ol Dodge Challenger? I don't know, but thats another thing thats buggin me.
Maybe I'm not enjoying being single that much, after all. Maybe.