6/17/02 - Open Letter
Sorry, I'm just kinda reeling from what you said last night.
No, no, don't change it now, you did a wonderful thing. You're very brave, actually. Few people nowadays are brave enough to really say what's on their minds. You found the courage. You didn't have to edit yourself or worry about how it sounded - you just left your feelings out on the table. Look at me, I'm not that brave! It took me 6 days just to get the balls to say somehting at all - and of course it didn't end up being asked the way I thought it would. I was too weak and screwed it up. Thank god that when I was trying to work up the balls to ask, I knew that at least our friendship would be ok regardless of the answer. That helped take the edge off.
My bad, though. Obviously I didn't realize how bad a guy I was, or I wouldn't have asked. I must have been pretty bad to evoke such certain feelings. Geez, I'm so weak, in fact, that I don't know how I'm going to finish my vacation! I mean, I'm sure anyone with your strength would be fine right now, but I'm not that strong a man. The idea of spending the next 4 days living as a guest in your home, making you drive me around town since I have no clue where anything is here... makes me feel really uncomfortable. I can tell how thrilled you must be about it, and I feel just terrible for making my host uncomfortable with me, her guest. I shouldn't have put you in that position. Sorry to have been a bother. I'll do my best never to put you in an uncomfortable position again.
Oh, just to make sure, will the sound of my voice bother you? How about IMs, will it be OK if I talk to you online or would that also be uncomfortable. Maybe I better play it safe and not risk offending you further.
No, no, don't change it now, you did a wonderful thing. You're very brave, actually. Few people nowadays are brave enough to really say what's on their minds. You found the courage. You didn't have to edit yourself or worry about how it sounded - you just left your feelings out on the table. Look at me, I'm not that brave! It took me 6 days just to get the balls to say somehting at all - and of course it didn't end up being asked the way I thought it would. I was too weak and screwed it up. Thank god that when I was trying to work up the balls to ask, I knew that at least our friendship would be ok regardless of the answer. That helped take the edge off.
My bad, though. Obviously I didn't realize how bad a guy I was, or I wouldn't have asked. I must have been pretty bad to evoke such certain feelings. Geez, I'm so weak, in fact, that I don't know how I'm going to finish my vacation! I mean, I'm sure anyone with your strength would be fine right now, but I'm not that strong a man. The idea of spending the next 4 days living as a guest in your home, making you drive me around town since I have no clue where anything is here... makes me feel really uncomfortable. I can tell how thrilled you must be about it, and I feel just terrible for making my host uncomfortable with me, her guest. I shouldn't have put you in that position. Sorry to have been a bother. I'll do my best never to put you in an uncomfortable position again.
Oh, just to make sure, will the sound of my voice bother you? How about IMs, will it be OK if I talk to you online or would that also be uncomfortable. Maybe I better play it safe and not risk offending you further.