4/23/02 - Am I thinking too far ahead?
4,282,101 seconds (about 49 days). I'll be stepping off a plane to stay with the High School Crush (HSC - I like TLA's [three letter acronyms]) for a week.
Here's the part where I think I'm being stupid. She lives on a coast, I live in Illinois. I've started thinking about how it would play out if we started something. Here I am asking myself about gradschool out in her area, when I don't even know
What am I doing? This is stupid. She's given me no reason to think that she would want an actual relationship with me. I know how bad long distance relationships can be if she did want a relationship with me. All that aside, if we started a relationship, shouldn't we wait a while and test the waters before one of us makes a life changing cross-country move to be with the other? Am I just setting myself up for a fall? I hate falling!
Well, a 10:30 class awaits me in the morning, so I'm gonna go to bed and pray I don't sleep through it again. I haven't been since the day he handed back the midterm exam (I got a 97). Adios.
Here's the part where I think I'm being stupid. She lives on a coast, I live in Illinois. I've started thinking about how it would play out if we started something. Here I am asking myself about gradschool out in her area, when I don't even know
- Do I want to go to grad school?
- Would I want to move out there?
- Is this all even going to be an option?
- Does she actually like me that much?
- Will we want to start something?
- Am I an idiot?
What am I doing? This is stupid. She's given me no reason to think that she would want an actual relationship with me. I know how bad long distance relationships can be if she did want a relationship with me. All that aside, if we started a relationship, shouldn't we wait a while and test the waters before one of us makes a life changing cross-country move to be with the other? Am I just setting myself up for a fall? I hate falling!
Well, a 10:30 class awaits me in the morning, so I'm gonna go to bed and pray I don't sleep through it again. I haven't been since the day he handed back the midterm exam (I got a 97). Adios.