Hey, where are you? I was going to tell you the brave thing(s) that I said to my crush. I'm being really brave about her lately. And it feels REALLY good. And it makes me really happy.
The girl you used to have a crush on? I know who that is, I think! And she's my friend! hahahah. And I have some funny things about her. (should I say her name?) She's blonde, though, right? And her initials are KB, right? If that is the same girl, then I actually had a crush on her too for a *very brief* time. Hahahaha.
God, stupid Kyle! Seriously. Ugh. I was talking to Zeb and he was like, "I can't believe I was friends with you, because you were Kyle's girlfriend, and I don't understand how anyone could have ever liked him!!!" That was SOOO not nice of him! I have SERIOUSLY changed SOOOO much since I was with Kyle. I don't know if you have any idea, but some people may....Chris does! But it's amazing/crazy.
Anyways, I'll tell you the whole story (In my next comment, because apparently I am over the comment character limit!)hahahhaa!
The whole story!@!!!2211!winters_castingFebruary 25 2007, 03:44:50 UTC
I was a girl who wanted a hot, chivalrous (ugh, now the thought of chivalrous is disgusting, but bear with me), kind-of-fucked-up boy. But not fucked-up in a bad way like Kyle, fucked up in a more cool way, like Richey Edwards. Okay. So I met Kyle. And I didn't know ANYTHING about him AT ALL. Apparently everyone else thought he was super weird and creepy (they were right!), but no one told me that. But I thought he was REALLY cute. He had these big nerdy glasses and a pretty hot body, and he kind of looked like an anime character. Furthermore, when I met him, he was *drawing* anime. REALLY REALLY good anime, too. How could I not be impressed, right?
So then one day he like, lent me his coat, and I was like, "OMG! A BOY WILLINGLY LENT ME HIS COAT!!!" And I guess I decided to date him.
So then I actually got to know him and figured out that he was obsessed with war, had CRAZY SUPER OVER PROTECTIVE parents, had a crazy religion, and was just generally crazy in general. (haha.) So at first, I wanted to take care of him a lot. Like I'd hold him and cuddle him and stuff when he was crying. And I thought that was sweet. I never knew a boy who cried so...openly? But then he started crying like, every day. And then he wouldn't let me hang out with my friends. (And I think my friends stopped liking me!) And he got really weird about me wanting to (safely!) try drugs. And he was always worried about shit. And his parents were fucking nuts. And, ugh. It was terrible, but I felt bad, because it seemed like he needed me SOOOO much, that I didn't know what to do. Also, I had super low self esteem, and was afraid that no boy would ever love me again. (Stupidest thing ever, I know, but I grew up going to snobby rich kid edgerton where I had no friends, and that was a big factor in the self-esteem thing. Of course though, I only have my self to blame...you know.) ;)
Oh, and also, he'd lie to me ALL THE TIME! About everything!! It was terrible! I didn't notice it at first and then one day I made him tell me the same story like, three times, and it changed everytime.
So basically, I wasn't really that "into" him for that long. I mean, let's see. I think we dated for a year. But I was probably only into him half the time. Because the other half he just got to be like, some awful needy pet or child. But I didn't know what to do about him, really. I did CARE for him, and thought that he needed to have someone to depend on.
But then I met Chris. And I REALLY liked him. And he was sooo cool, and he told me all these super cool spiritual stories and shit. And he had a cute mullet. And he was open to like, EVERYTHING. And his parents were really nice. And he was happy all the time. So I started visiting him a lot and hanging out with him a lot and then one day I just started making out with him. And it was super cool. And fun.
And then I had sex with him. And then I told Kyle that I did all that stuff, and Kyle was like, "It's okay, I forgive you!" And I was like, "No. I like Chris now. I don't want to be your girlfriend anymore!"
And then I never really talked to him again. And once I saw him at the dmv with his friends and it was super awkward and scary. Oh, and also, then Chris and I got a lot of shit/drama from Kyle's friends in highschool. But then they realized how awesome we were. (I guess.) And then Chris and I lived happily ever after!!!!
And god dammit, no one better associate me with Kyle in a negative way again!! (hahahaha.)
Okay, and just to clarify, I harbor no bad feelings for those edgerton kids now. I'm sure they've all changed just as much as I have, etc. etc. And I don't harbor any bad feelings for Kyle, either.
I still have one of her cd's that I borrowed in highschool. (Shh!!)
I was in contact with her like, a year ago for the first time in a long time, and that was the time I had a crush on her. I developed the crush because I had a hot dream about her. The crush dissipated quickly.
RIGHT after MY crush friended me on facebook, SHE friended me, and she was like, "I saw that [crush] friended you and I wanted in on the fun!!" Hahahaha. I was like, hmm?
So we've just started talking back and forth again. She's a bra specialist. And she's engaged to a Japanese boy. I like her a lot. She's pretty damn cool/nice.
What did she do that made you not like her? Also, the fact that she and my crush were in a relationship is hot. I KIND OF knew that, but it was never really confirmed. Hawt.
Oh, well, I just got over it because she had a really serious boyfriend at the time. I actually, like, told her that I had a crush on her (this was sophomore year. she was a senior, i think.) And it was really super awkward. And I think she was kind of mean about it, which made me really hate her for awhile. But looking back, she probably acted completely appropriately and I was just pissed because I got rejected. My memories are probably different than what actually happened.
Nonetheless, she apologized recently (a few months ago) and we're myspace friends now. She seems like she hasn't really changed that much.
Oh yeah. I think she actually dumped another girl I know for that boyfriend. And the other girl was really mad.
Hmm, I'm glad you're friends. And yeah, I don't think she has changed too much either. I wonder if people think I've changed. Hmm.
Oh, and it's cute that you thought Chris and I were a cute couple. I remember hearing/seeing you and Mason play guitar once and saying to Chris, "Listen!! The emo kids are playing guitar!!!!" Hahahaha. It wasn't derogatory-emo. Just funny-emo. Oh! But then I also remember seeing you talking to Mr. Nadeau about Waking Life! And that was cool.
mason and i WERE ridiculously emo. to the point where i'm actually a little embarrassed whenever i run into people who, like, knew us in high school.
i think that girl likes to say that she is bisexual but she is really just a straight girl who kisses chicks sometimes. but only if they are japanese/obsessed with japan.
i talk shit, but i really don't harbor any bad feelings. i was really stupid and immature back then and i wouldn't have wanted to date me either.
Yeah! I miss him. Chris and I were the most badass people in his poetry class. Seriously. Everyone loved us.
Hahahaha! It was really funny, because when I started hanging out with you, I was like, "Ali isn't very emo at all. Why did I think she was?" But it's because you actually were. I remember you two wearing, I think, matching striped jackets.
I've never actually heard her say she was bisexual and I was actually kind of surprised when I figured out that she had been in actual relationships with girls. The story that the one girl told me about her dumping her for that boyfriend was really sad. I felt bad. But now I realize that it was highschool and super overly dramatic. AND, the girl that got dumped told me that story while she was with this OTHER girl who is still my friend but the two of them hate eachother now. And when I was with them I remember being jealous of them because they were super close friends/friends-with-benefits and I felt really third-wheel-ish.
Oh, did you know that I had a crush on you? (I think you did know) but did you know that you were one of the first girls that I ever had a remotely flirty conversation with, when we first started talking to eachother? And that made me really excited. Because I was trying really hard to have some lesbian experiences at the time.
Oh, and now I'm going to tell you about the icon. I made it JUST for my user-icon in this forum that I joined to talk to my crush. And it's a horse in a car. Horse is Uma in Japanese, and car is Kuruma. So it's UmaKuruma. (my username in the forum), and that comes from this joke. Because when you put the kanji for horse next to the kanji for car, it means horse drawn carriage, and it's pronounced "Basha". But when I first saw it I said, "UMA KURUMA!" because it rhymed, and I thought that was really funny. And so did everyone else in my Japanese class.
Yeah. You are incredibly nerdy. But you're super open about it so it's totally excusable.
I have no memory of matching striped jackets, but if that actually happened, then that is hilarious. I think we did wear matching shirts one time but it was totally on accident.
Yes I knew you had a crush on me. Well, i THOUGHT you had a crush on me. I wasn't sure or anything. I totally had a crush on you too. You probably knew that. That's super cool that you didn't think I was emo when you met me because I think a lot of people still think I am and that bothers me.
The girl you used to have a crush on? I know who that is, I think! And she's my friend! hahahah. And I have some funny things about her. (should I say her name?) She's blonde, though, right? And her initials are KB, right? If that is the same girl, then I actually had a crush on her too for a *very brief* time. Hahahaha.
God, stupid Kyle! Seriously. Ugh. I was talking to Zeb and he was like, "I can't believe I was friends with you, because you were Kyle's girlfriend, and I don't understand how anyone could have ever liked him!!!" That was SOOO not nice of him! I have SERIOUSLY changed SOOOO much since I was with Kyle. I don't know if you have any idea, but some people may....Chris does! But it's amazing/crazy.
Anyways, I'll tell you the whole story (In my next comment, because apparently I am over the comment character limit!)hahahhaa!
Reply
So then one day he like, lent me his coat, and I was like, "OMG! A BOY WILLINGLY LENT ME HIS COAT!!!" And I guess I decided to date him.
So then I actually got to know him and figured out that he was obsessed with war, had CRAZY SUPER OVER PROTECTIVE parents, had a crazy religion, and was just generally crazy in general. (haha.)
So at first, I wanted to take care of him a lot. Like I'd hold him and cuddle him and stuff when he was crying. And I thought that was sweet. I never knew a boy who cried so...openly? But then he started crying like, every day. And then he wouldn't let me hang out with my friends. (And I think my friends stopped liking me!) And he got really weird about me wanting to (safely!) try drugs. And he was always worried about shit. And his parents were fucking nuts. And, ugh. It was terrible, but I felt bad, because it seemed like he needed me SOOOO much, that I didn't know what to do. Also, I had super low self esteem, and was afraid that no boy would ever love me again. (Stupidest thing ever, I know, but I grew up going to snobby rich kid edgerton where I had no friends, and that was a big factor in the self-esteem thing. Of course though, I only have my self to blame...you know.) ;)
Oh, and also, he'd lie to me ALL THE TIME! About everything!! It was terrible! I didn't notice it at first and then one day I made him tell me the same story like, three times, and it changed everytime.
So basically, I wasn't really that "into" him for that long. I mean, let's see. I think we dated for a year. But I was probably only into him half the time. Because the other half he just got to be like, some awful needy pet or child. But I didn't know what to do about him, really. I did CARE for him, and thought that he needed to have someone to depend on.
But then I met Chris. And I REALLY liked him. And he was sooo cool, and he told me all these super cool spiritual stories and shit. And he had a cute mullet. And he was open to like, EVERYTHING. And his parents were really nice. And he was happy all the time. So I started visiting him a lot and hanging out with him a lot and then one day I just started making out with him. And it was super cool. And fun.
And then I had sex with him. And then I told Kyle that I did all that stuff, and Kyle was like, "It's okay, I forgive you!" And I was like, "No. I like Chris now. I don't want to be your girlfriend anymore!"
And then I never really talked to him again. And once I saw him at the dmv with his friends and it was super awkward and scary. Oh, and also, then Chris and I got a lot of shit/drama from Kyle's friends in highschool. But then they realized how awesome we were. (I guess.) And then Chris and I lived happily ever after!!!!
And god dammit, no one better associate me with Kyle in a negative way again!! (hahahaha.)
Okay, and just to clarify, I harbor no bad feelings for those edgerton kids now. I'm sure they've all changed just as much as I have, etc. etc. And I don't harbor any bad feelings for Kyle, either.
The end.
Reply
Reply
Reply
So, is it the same girl?
Reply
Yeah! It's totally the same girl!
Reply
I still have one of her cd's that I borrowed in highschool. (Shh!!)
I was in contact with her like, a year ago for the first time in a long time, and that was the time I had a crush on her. I developed the crush because I had a hot dream about her. The crush dissipated quickly.
RIGHT after MY crush friended me on facebook, SHE friended me, and she was like, "I saw that [crush] friended you and I wanted in on the fun!!" Hahahaha. I was like, hmm?
So we've just started talking back and forth again. She's a bra specialist. And she's engaged to a Japanese boy. I like her a lot. She's pretty damn cool/nice.
What did she do that made you not like her?
Also, the fact that she and my crush were in a relationship is hot. I KIND OF knew that, but it was never really confirmed. Hawt.
Reply
Nonetheless, she apologized recently (a few months ago) and we're myspace friends now. She seems like she hasn't really changed that much.
Reply
Hmm, I'm glad you're friends. And yeah, I don't think she has changed too much either. I wonder if people think I've changed. Hmm.
Oh, and it's cute that you thought Chris and I were a cute couple. I remember hearing/seeing you and Mason play guitar once and saying to Chris, "Listen!! The emo kids are playing guitar!!!!" Hahahaha. It wasn't derogatory-emo. Just funny-emo. Oh! But then I also remember seeing you talking to Mr. Nadeau about Waking Life! And that was cool.
Reply
mason and i WERE ridiculously emo. to the point where i'm actually a little embarrassed whenever i run into people who, like, knew us in high school.
i think that girl likes to say that she is bisexual but she is really just a straight girl who kisses chicks sometimes. but only if they are japanese/obsessed with japan.
i talk shit, but i really don't harbor any bad feelings. i was really stupid and immature back then and i wouldn't have wanted to date me either.
Reply
Hahahaha! It was really funny, because when I started hanging out with you, I was like, "Ali isn't very emo at all. Why did I think she was?" But it's because you actually were. I remember you two wearing, I think, matching striped jackets.
I've never actually heard her say she was bisexual and I was actually kind of surprised when I figured out that she had been in actual relationships with girls. The story that the one girl told me about her dumping her for that boyfriend was really sad. I felt bad. But now I realize that it was highschool and super overly dramatic. AND, the girl that got dumped told me that story while she was with this OTHER girl who is still my friend but the two of them hate eachother now. And when I was with them I remember being jealous of them because they were super close friends/friends-with-benefits and I felt really third-wheel-ish.
Oh, did you know that I had a crush on you? (I think you did know) but did you know that you were one of the first girls that I ever had a remotely flirty conversation with, when we first started talking to eachother? And that made me really excited. Because I was trying really hard to have some lesbian experiences at the time.
Oh, and now I'm going to tell you about the icon. I made it JUST for my user-icon in this forum that I joined to talk to my crush. And it's a horse in a car. Horse is Uma in Japanese, and car is Kuruma. So it's UmaKuruma. (my username in the forum), and that comes from this joke. Because when you put the kanji for horse next to the kanji for car, it means horse drawn carriage, and it's pronounced "Basha". But when I first saw it I said, "UMA KURUMA!" because it rhymed, and I thought that was really funny. And so did everyone else in my Japanese class.
God, I'm a nerd. Bigtime.
Reply
I have no memory of matching striped jackets, but if that actually happened, then that is hilarious. I think we did wear matching shirts one time but it was totally on accident.
Yes I knew you had a crush on me. Well, i THOUGHT you had a crush on me. I wasn't sure or anything. I totally had a crush on you too. You probably knew that. That's super cool that you didn't think I was emo when you met me because I think a lot of people still think I am and that bothers me.
Reply
Leave a comment