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today kind of sucked.
I'm soooo stressed about money.
i think I'm probably going to have to get another job.
Ashley is coming to relieve me tonight though! i bet that will make my day better.
i left my phone at home today. not having my phone always makes me kind of nervous. even though it's rare that i actually answer it when people call me. i don't know why i do that. i should stop. i hate when people don't answer my calls.
Ben got a job at Teletech but he doesn't know if he's going to take it. he thinks it's going to be "too intense". intense is not a word that i usually hear when someone is describing Teletech. but whatever.
i think i need to start going to NA again. it's just...it's not the meetings that i have trouble with. it's all the work. i don't want to do the steps or get a sponsor. i ESPECIALLY don't want a sponsor. there's no one in the NA community here who i feel like i can really connect with. also, i don't want to quit drinking. i'm not an alcoholic. which i realize is a totally typical thing for a drug addict to say. but seriously, i drink every once in awhile. i rarely get trashed. i rarely even enjoy drinking. but sometimes it's nice. and i don't want to quit doing it. i think that these are all pretty lame excuses and that, in the end, i'm just trying to get out of doing the work it takes for me to lead a healthy life.
I'm soooo stressed about money.
i think I'm probably going to have to get another job.
Ashley is coming to relieve me tonight though! i bet that will make my day better.
i left my phone at home today. not having my phone always makes me kind of nervous. even though it's rare that i actually answer it when people call me. i don't know why i do that. i should stop. i hate when people don't answer my calls.
Ben got a job at Teletech but he doesn't know if he's going to take it. he thinks it's going to be "too intense". intense is not a word that i usually hear when someone is describing Teletech. but whatever.
i think i need to start going to NA again. it's just...it's not the meetings that i have trouble with. it's all the work. i don't want to do the steps or get a sponsor. i ESPECIALLY don't want a sponsor. there's no one in the NA community here who i feel like i can really connect with. also, i don't want to quit drinking. i'm not an alcoholic. which i realize is a totally typical thing for a drug addict to say. but seriously, i drink every once in awhile. i rarely get trashed. i rarely even enjoy drinking. but sometimes it's nice. and i don't want to quit doing it. i think that these are all pretty lame excuses and that, in the end, i'm just trying to get out of doing the work it takes for me to lead a healthy life.