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[rockinskirts]

Sometimes people live the life you want
its hard when its your brother
its harder when you never see the kid
except in the mornin on drives to skool
where I always seem to be screwing up
and he yells at me
But then its even HARDER when he always seemed
to have things you could never get
but then all of a sudden he is living the life
you have been known for
and its not fair
because aaron and I have always been exact opposites
and if he all of a sudden gets the life I have
on top of the life he had
he will have everything
There are times when I wish I was less like me
and more like him
But God dammit... the hardest thing of all
is magicly hearing about it all
from people that are my friends
who is he?
I don't even know
I wish I did
and now I just realized a pretty cool kid
who all I have ever seen as the exact opposite as me
and soemone I could never live up to
Could of been a pretty cool guy to have on your side
damnit... hes going soon
off to carnagie mellon
My brother is a good kid
and hes got his "ducks in line"
I have never once had my ducks in line
I just wish I spent this year finding out who he was...
instead of trying to figure out what i wasn't