LET THEM EAT CAKE TILL THEY ALL STARVE

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i love this time of year more than any other. i even love the sugar free heat of summer, where you can hardly breathe cuz it feels lke your sucking up dust and your clothes just cling to you, but it is september that i hold closely. everything is new again, everything starts over, it feels more like a new year than january 1 does. im still trying to cope with the chemical ways and chemical cravings. its getting less and less hard, but still i feel an itch like yearning for that spark in my brain. i also know the drop dead celebration of what that darkness brings. i know what it is like to not be able to get out of bed for daze 'been drowning here for days' i would feel. so i was involved with this old pretentious name dropping opportunist and realised what a fucking expense it was to be asociated with him. it just struck me, the pattern of his relations with people. always 'just borrowing, can you help me with, oh i need one of, can i leave my dog (the ugliest juicest dog EVER, and by the way can i live with you? the professional house sitter. eew im over it.

EVERYTHING TAKES FOREVER.