Jan 07, 2007 13:34
its raining, its boring. Though I do get to live at my bosses, rent free. I bought a mini fridge to keep some water and left overs in. I have a lot of snack foos that I dont want to eat cuz im trying to get fit. Started working out at the Y hopefully see some young hotties working out too. I am feeling bigger and I think I might try changing it up and going for tone, more reps lighter weight. We will see it all depends on time. More reps takes more time. I am in a weight loss contest at work I need to lose 13 pounds in 6 weeks. I think I could do it, I dont really want to. I kinda want to gain weight of course thats hopefully muscle. I could try losing the weight then gaining the muscle. We will see. I am trying to cut down my meal sizes. I eat way too much in one sitting. Trying to keep it to like one serving instead of like 3 or 4. That might do the trick. Apparently I have trouble with typing s's instead of d's. Anyway, I have my tv so I can watch my movies on the big screen. I have a tv in the basement with satellite. I have a computer to check stuff online. I have a washer and dryer so I dont have to go and pay at a laundromat. Thats prolly the coolest part I hate laundry. It is kinda lonely and boring out here. Since I have given up on girls it makes it for a long day not talking on the phone to someone. I like it better though. Its not as confusing. Dont have to worry so much. Still would like to find that one girl that makes the difference though, that one that makes me wonder what shes doing and makes me wonder how she is feeling. Someday I will find her, who knows, maybe I already have and just havent realized it. I like Victoria, its just doesnt seem i dont know. Its wierd, maybe I just need to spend time with her. I wish things just worked out. Proud Jake is moving forward, it seemed like it was so long he was lost but i think he is coming around. Zach seems a little different than I remember. Maybe over time we can hang out more. There are so many people I would like to show myself to. All those people that think I am a bad person. This year is a new start though. I can show people who I am and be myself. There is one thing I would like to look into, I think it will fail. But when it does I would like to know why. and hope its not for the reason I predict. This year is gonna bring a lot of change I can feel it. A lot of things will never be the same.