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The last days have been Hell. Monday, at my sisters game, there was a lot of lighting. They took them on and off the field 4 times. My dad, being hit by lightning in the past, got my sister and left. My mom raised hell. It almost got to the point that my Step Mother and Mom almost fought.
Me and my mother got into a large arguement. I stopped by her house that night to pick some games up. She asked me what was wrong, and I replied,"I can't believe you acted like that."
All hell breaks loose. I mean it. She went off. I couldn't take it. I screamed to let the frustration and anger out of me. She taunted me. "GO ON, ACT LIKE YOUR FATHER!" She said for all she cared, I could kiss her ass. That I could go back to Wiley street and kiss my dad's. I lost it. I was crushed. I finally left that hell hole and went home. To my fathers. I talked with them for a while and then to my sister. I have had enough. I am leaving there. To move in with my father.
What has she done to me? Let's make a list.
Told me to kiss her ass
Screamed at me and accused me of not taking her side.
Controlled me to no end.
She has controlled who picked up me and my sister.
She yells for no reason
Too many fights there
She demands respect, does not earn it.
She said I betrayed her
Dragged my sister into it
Accused me of not looking after my sister by letting her see what happend at the ball diamond.
Treats me different than my sister.
Said she owned me
She has done a lot to me. She makes the pain worse instead of better. What really has pushed my buttons, is she never knew how well I played my guitar till she asked my dad. That shows how much she listens. That crushed me. Guitar is very important to me.
Her "Kiss my ass" comment hit me hard. I never thought she would attack me. She apologized, but that doesn't mean shit. She can't take the pain away. I was a wreck after I finally got home.
She called today to say we are going to see a family counselor. That won't do anygood. Everytime it gets to her, she quits and makes up some bullshit story. I see through it. She needs the counseling, not me. I will go though.. I will go to counseling with her. I want to move to my fathers. I will tell my attorney, my judge, and my mothers attorney. I will win. I cannot be in misery anymore. I don't want to be. I cannot stand her yelling. She says she is doing better, I say she is fooling herself.
She accused me of taking Vicki's side. I have taken no ones. I am neutral. The Switzerland of the situation. Mom's story has turned to mush. She has changed it. Yesterday, she said Vicki tried grabbed her wrist.Today, she said she swung at her. Which is it? I asked her that and got no reply.
I told my mom that I feared her. I do. I fear her very very much at times. I fear her now. I am afraid that this could get a lot worse, but you have to be ready to step on some toes and move on. I will be happy. I planned on moving to my Dad's after I turned 18 so I could go to college, but it can't wait.
I worry that she will take this out on my sister, but I have learned to not underestimate my sister. She can take care of herself. I have taught her all the self control I could. Hopefully it will work for her. I love her to death, and would defend her at all costs. Even the cost of my life. I care about her that much. She is my sister after all.
I will deal with it as it comes. I am no coward, and will stand up for what I think is right, not what my mother thinks is right. I will bow before her no longer.
I will talk with the attorney soon. I have people lined up wanting to be there that court day. Grandparents, my Uncle, Vicki. Everyone. I thank them for that. That means a lot to me to see that my family cares that much. Thank you to my family on my fathers side for taking me with open arms, and clear hearts. I love you all.
Me and my mother got into a large arguement. I stopped by her house that night to pick some games up. She asked me what was wrong, and I replied,"I can't believe you acted like that."
All hell breaks loose. I mean it. She went off. I couldn't take it. I screamed to let the frustration and anger out of me. She taunted me. "GO ON, ACT LIKE YOUR FATHER!" She said for all she cared, I could kiss her ass. That I could go back to Wiley street and kiss my dad's. I lost it. I was crushed. I finally left that hell hole and went home. To my fathers. I talked with them for a while and then to my sister. I have had enough. I am leaving there. To move in with my father.
What has she done to me? Let's make a list.
Told me to kiss her ass
Screamed at me and accused me of not taking her side.
Controlled me to no end.
She has controlled who picked up me and my sister.
She yells for no reason
Too many fights there
She demands respect, does not earn it.
She said I betrayed her
Dragged my sister into it
Accused me of not looking after my sister by letting her see what happend at the ball diamond.
Treats me different than my sister.
Said she owned me
She has done a lot to me. She makes the pain worse instead of better. What really has pushed my buttons, is she never knew how well I played my guitar till she asked my dad. That shows how much she listens. That crushed me. Guitar is very important to me.
Her "Kiss my ass" comment hit me hard. I never thought she would attack me. She apologized, but that doesn't mean shit. She can't take the pain away. I was a wreck after I finally got home.
She called today to say we are going to see a family counselor. That won't do anygood. Everytime it gets to her, she quits and makes up some bullshit story. I see through it. She needs the counseling, not me. I will go though.. I will go to counseling with her. I want to move to my fathers. I will tell my attorney, my judge, and my mothers attorney. I will win. I cannot be in misery anymore. I don't want to be. I cannot stand her yelling. She says she is doing better, I say she is fooling herself.
She accused me of taking Vicki's side. I have taken no ones. I am neutral. The Switzerland of the situation. Mom's story has turned to mush. She has changed it. Yesterday, she said Vicki tried grabbed her wrist.Today, she said she swung at her. Which is it? I asked her that and got no reply.
I told my mom that I feared her. I do. I fear her very very much at times. I fear her now. I am afraid that this could get a lot worse, but you have to be ready to step on some toes and move on. I will be happy. I planned on moving to my Dad's after I turned 18 so I could go to college, but it can't wait.
I worry that she will take this out on my sister, but I have learned to not underestimate my sister. She can take care of herself. I have taught her all the self control I could. Hopefully it will work for her. I love her to death, and would defend her at all costs. Even the cost of my life. I care about her that much. She is my sister after all.
I will deal with it as it comes. I am no coward, and will stand up for what I think is right, not what my mother thinks is right. I will bow before her no longer.
I will talk with the attorney soon. I have people lined up wanting to be there that court day. Grandparents, my Uncle, Vicki. Everyone. I thank them for that. That means a lot to me to see that my family cares that much. Thank you to my family on my fathers side for taking me with open arms, and clear hearts. I love you all.