Rumors Were Circulation Within The Gay Community. Found Out What They Were, & WISHED They Were True.
Long story short, there was a bunch of he said, she said bulshit, and I found out there have been rumors floating in the air about ME within' the gay community at school. Luckily I'm friends wit' all of 'em, otherwise there would have been some flying fists. Thank God it was a bunch of misunderstandings. Rumor was that I was "talkin'" to this one guy Adam (no last names, even though like half of the people on my friends list know who I'm talkin' 'bout) for a while now, and that we ALMOST "hooked up" but didn't because of unknown reasons. Then I find out a few hours later, from one of my really close friends that she heard that we DID hook up right before break! Where the hell did this come from? If this was true I would be SO much more happier! I'd be more fucking laid back too, because I'd be gettin' a piece of ass! But no!
I found all this out right after school, while I wasiting to be picked up. After I got picked up I began to get sad, 'cause I kept thinking 'bout the rumors and how I WISHED that they WERE ture. I'm so lonely right now. I think this is the worst I've been.. =/
This even brings up even MORE questions! Why do I even care 'bout people that I barely know!? I LUST these guys so much, that I pretty much make myself believe that I love these guys. I force the impression that I'll end up hookin' up wit' 'em in the NEAR future. When in reality, I'm setting myself for a great fall. I've done this twice already, with multiple mini ones. I do this 'cause if I didn't have someone that I had a major crush on, or an infatuation, I'd be utterly alone.. I crush way too hard. I need to stop. I need someone to love me.
I NEED someone to hold me forever..
I want a HxC kid so bad! They're so hott... Especially the ones that wear makeup! I want a hott boy that wear makeup. Please.. I could use some lovin' right now.. =/
I'll leave you wit' the favorite lyrics of the song I'm in love wit' right now.
FATA x Short Stories With Tradgic Endings
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is
A reminder of what I'll never have
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down, come down.
I cherish you...I cherish you.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Say you would do the same...
Just say you would do the same for me.
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.)
I found all this out right after school, while I wasiting to be picked up. After I got picked up I began to get sad, 'cause I kept thinking 'bout the rumors and how I WISHED that they WERE ture. I'm so lonely right now. I think this is the worst I've been.. =/
This even brings up even MORE questions! Why do I even care 'bout people that I barely know!? I LUST these guys so much, that I pretty much make myself believe that I love these guys. I force the impression that I'll end up hookin' up wit' 'em in the NEAR future. When in reality, I'm setting myself for a great fall. I've done this twice already, with multiple mini ones. I do this 'cause if I didn't have someone that I had a major crush on, or an infatuation, I'd be utterly alone.. I crush way too hard. I need to stop. I need someone to love me.
I NEED someone to hold me forever..
I want a HxC kid so bad! They're so hott... Especially the ones that wear makeup! I want a hott boy that wear makeup. Please.. I could use some lovin' right now.. =/
I'll leave you wit' the favorite lyrics of the song I'm in love wit' right now.
FATA x Short Stories With Tradgic Endings
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is
A reminder of what I'll never have
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down, come down.
I cherish you...I cherish you.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Say you would do the same...
Just say you would do the same for me.
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.)