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I am so sick of guys. I can't choose between them, and they keep complicating things for me. The one I want I can't have, and I'm not so sure that I should want him in the first place. I'm so unhappy with the choices I've made to be who I am today. I had it all, and now I have nothing. I just miss it is all. I don't want to have my life how it is now though. I don't want to keep having these worthless hookups. I'm better than all of that. The one person who I normally would go to advice for can't help me. I'm lucky to have lots of people like me, but I seem to only focus on their flaws, and I loose interest in them. I really like someone, and I can tell that he likes me, but at this rate, nothing will happen. I think I still need to get over the old one first. I just don't see how someone can share so much love with you and then just leave. It doesn't seem right. I still love him, and haven't let go. It just hurts so fucking much... and I want it to STOP!