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God Damn... I am at a loss for words. I am alone. I feel so sad and depressed. I am scared. I dont know how to handle these feelings. I have never felt them in my life. Everything I have ever believed in seems so foolish now. I feel empty. I cry so much all the time now. It's all kinds of fucked up. I am so hurt. Austin tore me up today. I feel hated and worthless. I know he cares... but he sure has a funny way of showing it. I am so fucked up from all of this. I want to be his friend. I haev alot of thinking to do. And alot of healing to do. Blah... I'll talk about it later.