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Ok... So I know I already posted today.... but some stuff is bugging me... so I had to come back.
I'm really really worried about this semester socially... Jaylyn and Mindy apparently had this big talk on Saturday night while they were drunk about how apparently I hate Mindy. Which I dont. I've even been trying harder than usual to not be annoyed and it's working. Everything's been normal since then... but I'm worried it could get weird. And then so Jaylyn is turning 21 on Wednesday which is exciting, and I'm excited for her. Truly. BUT She and Mindy talked for like 45 minutes tonight about going to breakfast club and being able to go out and all this stuff ... while I was sitting between them in the living room. I wanted to cry. I mean obviously I didn't (well until now) cause I didn't want to make them feel guilty and all... but like... what the hell?? Why would they do that? And like obviously I know they're going to go and they do too... so why talk about it. It's going to be bad enough once it actually happens and I get totally ditched. Like I already did on Saturday when I had to wander around campus all alone.
Also. This weekend... Labor Day. Big weekend. Yeah, well not for me. My original plan was to go to Nashville... but that's obviously not happening. THEN when I was talking to Scott about 3 weeks ago when he heard about me and Mike he said he'd fly me out there for labor day because he missed us and he knew I had nothing else to do. Well we haven't talked in like a week and it never really came up again. So that's out too. So I was like well, I'll go home. I miss my parents and my dog, I'll go hang out with them. So I call my mom and tell her I'm coming home.... nope. They're going out of town. Jaylyn is going to Brownstown and when I was telling her this, she was like, well I would have you come with me, but I'm going to be working on vet school application stuff all weekend and I'll be really busy so you wont have any fun. Then tonight Brian tells me that Steve is going to Brownstown this weekend. Which makes me feel really crappy. I dont know. I'm just so alone.
And it sucks.
I'm tired of feeling like this every night.
I'm really really worried about this semester socially... Jaylyn and Mindy apparently had this big talk on Saturday night while they were drunk about how apparently I hate Mindy. Which I dont. I've even been trying harder than usual to not be annoyed and it's working. Everything's been normal since then... but I'm worried it could get weird. And then so Jaylyn is turning 21 on Wednesday which is exciting, and I'm excited for her. Truly. BUT She and Mindy talked for like 45 minutes tonight about going to breakfast club and being able to go out and all this stuff ... while I was sitting between them in the living room. I wanted to cry. I mean obviously I didn't (well until now) cause I didn't want to make them feel guilty and all... but like... what the hell?? Why would they do that? And like obviously I know they're going to go and they do too... so why talk about it. It's going to be bad enough once it actually happens and I get totally ditched. Like I already did on Saturday when I had to wander around campus all alone.
Also. This weekend... Labor Day. Big weekend. Yeah, well not for me. My original plan was to go to Nashville... but that's obviously not happening. THEN when I was talking to Scott about 3 weeks ago when he heard about me and Mike he said he'd fly me out there for labor day because he missed us and he knew I had nothing else to do. Well we haven't talked in like a week and it never really came up again. So that's out too. So I was like well, I'll go home. I miss my parents and my dog, I'll go hang out with them. So I call my mom and tell her I'm coming home.... nope. They're going out of town. Jaylyn is going to Brownstown and when I was telling her this, she was like, well I would have you come with me, but I'm going to be working on vet school application stuff all weekend and I'll be really busy so you wont have any fun. Then tonight Brian tells me that Steve is going to Brownstown this weekend. Which makes me feel really crappy. I dont know. I'm just so alone.
And it sucks.
I'm tired of feeling like this every night.