AHH!!!
OMG! I can't take it anymore!! i'm so sick and tired of everything!! okay...so u see, the past few friday nights i have been hanging out with megan, jim, drew, lindsay and kelly. no big deal right?!? i mean we dont do anything bad...we just hang out. ya kno, sometimes we go to wendy's and other times we just chill at other peoples house and play pool and what not. so this weekend i thought "hey! how about megan come over and spend the night on saturday!" so i ask my mom and it's cool with her...! so later on i mention to her that i would still like to hang out w/ them on friday..."WELL I THOUGHT THAT MEGAN SPENDING THE NIGHT WAS THE WHOLE POINT...U CANT SPEND EVERYDAY WITH THEM YOU KNOW?! YOU HAVE PRIORITIES AND FRIENDS CANT COME FIRST, NOW UNTIL YOUR GRADES COME UP YOU WONT HANG OUT WITH THEM. YOU USED TO LOOK FORWARD TO VOLUNTEERING AND NOW U JUST BLOW IT OFF LIKE ITS NO BIG DEAL." ok mom...NO i never looked forward to volunteering..WHO WOULD?! i mean yea it's nice to do and all, but what would YOU rather do?! hang out with people that you actually like, or go serve old people some food or coach a game. HANG OUT WITH YOUR FRIENDS RIGHT?! and I DONT HANG OUT WITH THEM EVERYDAY...i spend a few hours with them NO A FRIDAY NIGHT!! okay...so i sit there thinking to my self, after school lets out this will all be over w/ and i can hang out w/ them alot during the summer. NO!! I WAS WRONG!! she comes back and says that i have to do this volunteer crap at the Y and that i WONT be hanging out with them "alot" this summer. and another thing that's pissing me off is that HELLO...I HAVE A BOYFRIEND THAT I NEED TO SEE..AND SCHOOL ISNT ENOUGH!! she wont let me see him "alone" for a few months...why? i DONT FREAKING KNOW?!? i mean, it's not like we're gonna have wild sex or anything! GEEZUS ITS ONLY BEEN A MONTH! SHE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY! if i stay the night at someones house one weekend, then i can't do ne thing the next weekend, how RETARDED is that?! i mean...THEY SAY THAT HIGH SCHOOL IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE BEST TIME OF UR LIFE!! NO!! it makes me wanna freaking LEAVE this stupid place!! IM SO SICK AND TIRED OF IT!! i'm tired of all her negativity...and yelling and screaming at my brothers! and shes always talking so much crap about my dad, saying "how bad of a father he is!!!" okay, if he's a bad father THEN YOURE SATAN!!! AHHH!!! and all the time jim is like, i never see you, y is ur mom so difficult on u?, she should let u out on a friday night...i mean he tells me this alot, and i feel bad! b/c if i could, i'd be w/ him every chance i got!! I WISH I COULD SPEND MORE TIME WITH HIM!! BUT NNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! I CANT BC HITLER OVER HERE IS TREATING ME LIKE A FREAKING 3-YEAR OLD!! and what also makes me mad is that she thinks that shes "giving me alot of rope"...hmm NOOO!!! all my other friends can be home around 11 or 11:30, me...yea 10 30 the latest, if i'm A MINUTE late, i get executed! i ahve to call her everytime i freakin go ANYWHERE! and she thinks that 10 is "all hours of the night" ITS FREAKING 10 ON A FRIDAY NIGHT!!?! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OMG!! i swear, I HATE THIS!! I HAVE NO LIFE!! IM A PRISONER IN MY OWN HOME!!! while megan, jim, drew, lindsay and kelly r all chillin doing sumthing fun , I HAVE TO BE AT HOME...studying or cleaning my room...or something that makes me wanna SLIT MY FREAKING WRISTS!! i need to go back to my shrink, b/c i'm getting cabin fever and i cant stand being inside ne more! I WANT OUT!!