the real deal
Everyone wants to know what happened. I don’t need rumors so I’ll just let everyone know. Of course not everything is everyone’s business so I’ll say what I need to. Don’t worry this wont be in any abstract language describing my feelings. This is just what happened and how I feel about it.
Angie and I are no longer. Why? A few reasons:
- she wants to move on with her life and wants to know if I’m going to be there forever and I can’t tell her that seeing as how I’m only 20 and have had 2 girlfriends (her for a year and a half and a previous girl for 3 years)
- I can’t trust her. Yes, I know everyone told me but I think everyone deserves and honest shot and even a second chance. In the end I learned the hard way. I’m not trying to make this into a bash session, tearing her character apart. I will say that she lied or “didn’t say” certain things that I would have liked to have known. True, she never cheated. But hypothetically, if I tell you I’m going to Chicago and I drive the 8 hours there and get right outside the city and drive home, wouldn’t you like to know about it??
I’ve been betrayed by my best friend and confidant. She entrusts so much to me, enough to ruin her name in the entire state of Ohio and probably many other states and in turn I was ruined. I got shit all over for trying to be the best person I could be. I NEVER cheated, I never as so much gave anyone a look. Any of my friends, girl or guys, would say that out of everyone they know I would never do that to someone. Even if I didn’t love her I could never do anything to hurt another person.
She knows now she has messed up greatly. She cries and says sorry but what am I to do? This has happened before. I’m done going in circles. I’m done trying to make her who she wants to be and getting burned in the process. It’s tough; I do have feelings for this girl, beyond belief. But that can’t change my judgment because I never did anything to deserve the deceit I was dealt.
She tells me I’m perfect. Everything in my life has gone great. I have great friends, get good grades, the works and she has nothing… only me. I guess you really do hurt the ones you love, because I was stabbed in the back while I was still recovering from being stabbed in the chest. A lot of the things I have I worked for and still do. I find motivation and I had motivation to help her and stay with her through the worst. I provided a foundation, with great people as friends for her, great things to admire and aspire to be and it was all ignored. An assault on me is an attack on all of us. I know she isn’t perfect, hell, no one is. I’m still a dick and say things maybe I shouldn’t because I’m too blunt but there’s a certain point when you have crossed the line. She crossed it.
There’s a lot more where this came from but this is enough for now. Thanks for reading if you have gotten this far. I just needed to vent and I don’t usually use livejournal to do that but I figured since everyone keeps asking what happened this is the one place everyone can get their answers.
: roscoe :: the sweet isn’t as sweet without the sour unless the sour gets you killed
Angie and I are no longer. Why? A few reasons:
- she wants to move on with her life and wants to know if I’m going to be there forever and I can’t tell her that seeing as how I’m only 20 and have had 2 girlfriends (her for a year and a half and a previous girl for 3 years)
- I can’t trust her. Yes, I know everyone told me but I think everyone deserves and honest shot and even a second chance. In the end I learned the hard way. I’m not trying to make this into a bash session, tearing her character apart. I will say that she lied or “didn’t say” certain things that I would have liked to have known. True, she never cheated. But hypothetically, if I tell you I’m going to Chicago and I drive the 8 hours there and get right outside the city and drive home, wouldn’t you like to know about it??
I’ve been betrayed by my best friend and confidant. She entrusts so much to me, enough to ruin her name in the entire state of Ohio and probably many other states and in turn I was ruined. I got shit all over for trying to be the best person I could be. I NEVER cheated, I never as so much gave anyone a look. Any of my friends, girl or guys, would say that out of everyone they know I would never do that to someone. Even if I didn’t love her I could never do anything to hurt another person.
She knows now she has messed up greatly. She cries and says sorry but what am I to do? This has happened before. I’m done going in circles. I’m done trying to make her who she wants to be and getting burned in the process. It’s tough; I do have feelings for this girl, beyond belief. But that can’t change my judgment because I never did anything to deserve the deceit I was dealt.
She tells me I’m perfect. Everything in my life has gone great. I have great friends, get good grades, the works and she has nothing… only me. I guess you really do hurt the ones you love, because I was stabbed in the back while I was still recovering from being stabbed in the chest. A lot of the things I have I worked for and still do. I find motivation and I had motivation to help her and stay with her through the worst. I provided a foundation, with great people as friends for her, great things to admire and aspire to be and it was all ignored. An assault on me is an attack on all of us. I know she isn’t perfect, hell, no one is. I’m still a dick and say things maybe I shouldn’t because I’m too blunt but there’s a certain point when you have crossed the line. She crossed it.
There’s a lot more where this came from but this is enough for now. Thanks for reading if you have gotten this far. I just needed to vent and I don’t usually use livejournal to do that but I figured since everyone keeps asking what happened this is the one place everyone can get their answers.
: roscoe :: the sweet isn’t as sweet without the sour unless the sour gets you killed