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--Locked to those who know Lance w/ the exception of Wanda--
I normally don't like to use this fucking thing, cause fuck, whining about your problems to strangers has to get old real fucking fast, but I...need to get this out somewhere and I'm not going to fucking talk to anybody about it. So its either this or get blind fucking drunk and I've fucked up enough stuff that way, so I'm trying this.
Pietro's dead.
Has been dead. For a month now, and I didn't fucking know. Probably the longest he's ever been still and it's funny but it's not, not at all, because it's Pietro. He's not supposed to stop moving, not ever and he's not supposed to be dead. It's not supposed to work like that. He was a fucking celebrity. An Olympian. Someone important, goddammit, who had people who needed him and he's not supposed to be dead.
It's not fucking fair.
And I betrayed him. I fucking sold him out to save my own ass and Wanda, too, and she called me family. He was my best fucking friend in highschool and he fucking did something with his life and her too and I sold them out. Why? So I wouldn't go to fucking prison? Where I've been headed my whole fucking life anyway?
No. It's not going to be like this. I have to...fix this or something. Somehow. I need to take care of Wanda cause I owe him that. I owe him at least that.
I normally don't like to use this fucking thing, cause fuck, whining about your problems to strangers has to get old real fucking fast, but I...need to get this out somewhere and I'm not going to fucking talk to anybody about it. So its either this or get blind fucking drunk and I've fucked up enough stuff that way, so I'm trying this.
Pietro's dead.
Has been dead. For a month now, and I didn't fucking know. Probably the longest he's ever been still and it's funny but it's not, not at all, because it's Pietro. He's not supposed to stop moving, not ever and he's not supposed to be dead. It's not supposed to work like that. He was a fucking celebrity. An Olympian. Someone important, goddammit, who had people who needed him and he's not supposed to be dead.
It's not fucking fair.
And I betrayed him. I fucking sold him out to save my own ass and Wanda, too, and she called me family. He was my best fucking friend in highschool and he fucking did something with his life and her too and I sold them out. Why? So I wouldn't go to fucking prison? Where I've been headed my whole fucking life anyway?
No. It's not going to be like this. I have to...fix this or something. Somehow. I need to take care of Wanda cause I owe him that. I owe him at least that.