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I am so sad that I had forgotten my password but I must have had a moment of clarity and here I am again sitting in the driver's seat of my favorite outlet of my minds very warped thoughts. Wow oh wow do you ever need you now my reflection of my mind. I am so furious that I can hardly think right now. When you think that you are so close with "friends" then a simple few words can throw everything in jeopardy what a downward spiral you find yourself in, thus where I find myself at this moment. The barrier that I am capable of building around myself in but minutes is unimaginable to most but it is larger and thicker and stronger than a combination of the great wall of china combined with the Berlin wall. I must make this clear, I honestly don't believe that I need anyone, though I do chose to love people and to want them and to allow them into my life. And the idea of being taken for granted urkes me like you'll never know. Out of all of the random people one meets in their life only certain ones are allowed in, to know the true everything about me. Why would someone not appreciate this? It's not as if I befriend every Tom, Dick and Harry I meet, far from it. I have maybe a dozen true friends in this world, many more acquaintences but only a dozen, possibly a bakers dozen of true friends who I will always hold a place for in my heart and I'm sure that I also own, though it may be only a fragment, but a part of theirs as well. So why would someone take this for granted, if only for a moment and a few inconsiderate words. Nonetheless, I do NOT put up with bullshit, at least now tonight, tonight I am the Grizzly bear that you wish you would have never awoken. Yes, I do growl, I do claw, and I do bite. And I truely hope that these people who have awoken me are able to sing the sweetest of lullabies to put me back to rest. Enough of this for now, but before I end this part all I can say is KILL HATE DIE!!!!!
On a happier note, I am so excited, I finally have a light at the end of the tunnel. I finally set a move date for the mountains. I recently moved into a little, tiny, hole in the wall studio to save some cash for my mountain-man dream to begin Sept. 1st!!!!! Breckenridge here I come, long hair, crystal anti-prespirant stick, tree lovin' Johnny D. spirited me, and SOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPY! Mama I'm comin' home!!
Well a friends coming over to for a bit so must go for now but I promise many happy returns.
Kookie Cookie Forever
On a happier note, I am so excited, I finally have a light at the end of the tunnel. I finally set a move date for the mountains. I recently moved into a little, tiny, hole in the wall studio to save some cash for my mountain-man dream to begin Sept. 1st!!!!! Breckenridge here I come, long hair, crystal anti-prespirant stick, tree lovin' Johnny D. spirited me, and SOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPY! Mama I'm comin' home!!
Well a friends coming over to for a bit so must go for now but I promise many happy returns.
Kookie Cookie Forever