I'm basically posting this to zac but I'm including other shit.
^Newest picture of me, I actually smiled for once. Impressive eh?
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Holy mother FUCK it's been forever.
Posted by Angelamarie1112 on September 8, 2011 at 12:55 AM Delete delete Overlays edit
Oh hai guys, it's been quite a long time hasn't it? I'm really sorry I haven't been on lately, I had to return my computer back to the online school and I never got the chance to use the PC until recently.
-I'm dating James
-I was sick for 2 and a half months, and I'm still not okay yet.
-James and I went to Allstars Tour and it was one of the best experiences of my life. By the way Pat, I know who punched you in the pit, but it was accidental.
-Got re-registered into the high school, got an amazing schedule, and was only missing one and a half credits.
-Got into a huge fight with all those kids I used to hang out with, now they're trying to start mad shit with me, like fuggin hardcore. I've never had to deal with any of this drama bullshit until now.
-Austin (yes, my Spazztastic), Turtle, Jessica, and I (as well as James) all hang out now, but Dylan and Donovan are starting shit with Austin and he's about ready to kick their asses, but I fucking HATE fights and I've been keeping him back for a while. He nearly snapped today.
-James and I got into a huge fight because he knows I like Austin still and that Austin still likes me. But it turned ugly really fast and I fucking NEVER want to see that side of James EVER again. To this day, I'm still hurt from that shit. I'm starting to question our relationship, which I've never thought I'd have to do until now.
-I fell back into cutting, which isn't good at all. I was doing so fucking good, but I slipped up. It wasn't anything crazy, I barely grazed myself...but I did try to commit suicide the night James and I had that fight. I'm working on the not cutting again, and if I do it again and it's really bad, James and I will be no more. I won't allow myself to continue hurting him.
-I've already missed 5 days of school >.<
-Everything is kinda falling apart. But in some ways, coming back together. This is kinda the time before the turning point, and I'm hoping that the turning point is coming awful soon cuz I'm getting really sick of crying all the goddamn time. I HATE crying. Fucking hate it. I hate doing the same shit over and over, like an ongoing, neverending, inane circle. Thankfully, I have good friends now. Regardless, shit's rough right now, and this is just a mere summary of all the shit that's been happening lately.
Plus- my mom lost her job, James and I have gotten to the point that we don't talk, and then we do..and yeah life just fucking hates my guts right now.