Relationships
Megan, Juli, and I have been group texting with each other about this and that; mainly inspired by Jewels saying she wanted me to get married so she could attend a boho wedding. I wrote them a little note saying "I havent really told you guys but I am so happy with Rollie. He is everything a boyfriend should be: So caring, loving, honest, compromising, responsible, dependable, romantic and fun." They both said they are very happy for me, of course. They have had to go through all my bad relationships along side me, as have all my poor good friends. I love being able to report things are good instead of things are confusing. In past relationships it was always a rollercoaster. Chances are, if your relationship is up and down it isn't ever going to smooth out. Instead it takes forever for finally let go and move on from it. I see other people in the same situation I was in time and time again, and there is nothing I can do to make them see. It seems normal until you experience what normal really should be. Rollie and I still have our times when things are hard, but a lot of it is still working through issues created by the past. And sometimes I get scared of the future, what will happen to us over time. I see other people's marriages and long term relationships and worry about problems I see. I have been trained to think it eventually just isn't going to work since that is all I have ever known. But I have never been with someone equally committed, either.