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[rocketdrummer87]

I'm sick of myself.

I'm sick of how I am.

I'm sick of how I handle things.

I'm sick of how I deal with things.

I'm sick of saying the wrong things at the wrong times.

I'm sick of not being able to say the right things at the right times.

I'm sick of annoying people.

I'm sick of how I freeze up in situations where I need to do something.

I'm sick of not doing the right thing at the right time.

I'm sick of not making the difference I should.

I'm sick of being a father when I'm trying to be a friend.

I'm sick of not knowing how to help.

I'm sick of being the awkward one.

I'm sick of being the forgotten one.

I'm sick of not being there when I should.

I'm sick of being there when I shouldn't.

I'm sick of bugging people too much.

I'm sick of worrying about things that other people can ignore.

I'm sick of worrying when it brings about no good.

I'm sick of making things worse.

I'm sick that I'm going to eventually hurt someone I love.

I'm sick of not being strong enough for those that I love.

I'm sick of not helping people deal with stuff.

I'm sick of my loss of self discipline.

I'm sick of feeling like this!!

I'm sick of lots of things.

I hope you ignored this. I just needed to get it out of my head in a manner more productive than crying or yelling or running or something else.

Just way too much thinking and other such things way to early in the morning. I swear I'm not writing these depressive blogs to get people to feel sorry for me. I'm writing these things because this is like my outlet, it's keeping my water from boiling over. I don't know why I wrote this, just that it needed to come out.

And here I was going to try to blog more about topics and less about me. So much for that. 8:00 lab in 5 hours. Woo.