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I can hardly believe I'm typing this but today is my one year anniversary with Shaun. It seems insane.
I've been reading over old LJ entries, from when we first started dating, and it makes me feel all mushy, like this one, from my birthday, and especially this one from that horrible day when Beezus tried to run away from home (such a bad kitty!) I wouldn't say I fell in love with him that day, but that was when I knew that I could love him, and that I'd be lucky to.
And now I do love him, and I think every day about how lucky I am. And I feel even luckier because for some crazy reason or badly functioning brain synapse, he loves me too.
I want to say that he lets me be myself, but that's selling him short. The truth is, he lets me be all my selves: my smart self and my sort-of-stunned self, my silly self and my serious self, my brave self and my scared self, my self that gets teary at Sex And The City episodes, and my self that tries valiantly to carry home a case of beer even though I have arms like spaghetti.
With Shaun I can be all those selves. And maybe more importantly, I can be my better self. I'm better with him. He makes me better and he makes me want to be better.
It's been a year and I still feel like I'm having the best vacation of my life.
I've been reading over old LJ entries, from when we first started dating, and it makes me feel all mushy, like this one, from my birthday, and especially this one from that horrible day when Beezus tried to run away from home (such a bad kitty!) I wouldn't say I fell in love with him that day, but that was when I knew that I could love him, and that I'd be lucky to.
And now I do love him, and I think every day about how lucky I am. And I feel even luckier because for some crazy reason or badly functioning brain synapse, he loves me too.
I want to say that he lets me be myself, but that's selling him short. The truth is, he lets me be all my selves: my smart self and my sort-of-stunned self, my silly self and my serious self, my brave self and my scared self, my self that gets teary at Sex And The City episodes, and my self that tries valiantly to carry home a case of beer even though I have arms like spaghetti.
With Shaun I can be all those selves. And maybe more importantly, I can be my better self. I'm better with him. He makes me better and he makes me want to be better.
It's been a year and I still feel like I'm having the best vacation of my life.