crisis
what the heck am i doing?
i have absolutely no idea. i am totally inept at life. i can't do anything right, without tripping or falling or missing a note or forgetting a lyric.
i am just so thoroughly in over my head. i'm in so deep, i can't even see sky. i know what i need to work on, but it keeps swimming around me until i can't breathe. i skip classes for extra practice time. doesn't help. i just want to explode in a very loud, very messy way.... but i can't. i'm a self-contained person, i don't know if i can help that. instead of flailing my arms around wildly or shouting or taking up space or making big choices, i just... sink.
i don't feel like i am living my life. i'm marking it. when did this happen? how can i fix it?
i have absolutely no idea. i am totally inept at life. i can't do anything right, without tripping or falling or missing a note or forgetting a lyric.
i am just so thoroughly in over my head. i'm in so deep, i can't even see sky. i know what i need to work on, but it keeps swimming around me until i can't breathe. i skip classes for extra practice time. doesn't help. i just want to explode in a very loud, very messy way.... but i can't. i'm a self-contained person, i don't know if i can help that. instead of flailing my arms around wildly or shouting or taking up space or making big choices, i just... sink.
i don't feel like i am living my life. i'm marking it. when did this happen? how can i fix it?