Mmmkay....
Today was nothing out of the ordinary. I cut myself today because I had another dream about Andrew and I just cant handle life anymore by myself. It was the first time in 6 months that I'd cut myself and I thought I had it under control, but when things weigh down on me so heavily without resolution, I need to release the pain. I wish I wouldn't have chosen cutting though because it made Kyle and Rick really really upset with me. Kyle and I ended up getting into one of our infamous fights again, but Rick understood. I could tell he was really upset with me though.
I'm a wreck without Andrew, I can't stop crying and I want to die. I didn't know he was such a big part of my life until he wasn't there anymore. I'm so sad, I can't handle it.
I can't eat or sleep anymore. I haven't really done either in about a month. Here or there I'll eat something and sometimes I'll go to bed around 7am and wake up around 11, but that's about it. It's 3:50 and I'm wide awake crying. Does anyone care? I don't even think I care.
School starts soon. I feel like I just left the damn place. I don't think I'll be showing up much this year, considering that the whole thing is pointless. It's not like I showed up much last year anyway.
Megan's in Norway. That leaves me with seeing 0 friends the whole summer. Is she my only friend now or what? I guess so, and I never even see or talk to her anymore. This is just super.
The only things I have to look forward to in life are InuYasha and PopTarts. Is that all my life's come down to- a poorly made Japanese cartoon and pastries? At least I have something.
Oh, and my newt is dead. Life's great, ain't it?
I'm a wreck without Andrew, I can't stop crying and I want to die. I didn't know he was such a big part of my life until he wasn't there anymore. I'm so sad, I can't handle it.
I can't eat or sleep anymore. I haven't really done either in about a month. Here or there I'll eat something and sometimes I'll go to bed around 7am and wake up around 11, but that's about it. It's 3:50 and I'm wide awake crying. Does anyone care? I don't even think I care.
School starts soon. I feel like I just left the damn place. I don't think I'll be showing up much this year, considering that the whole thing is pointless. It's not like I showed up much last year anyway.
Megan's in Norway. That leaves me with seeing 0 friends the whole summer. Is she my only friend now or what? I guess so, and I never even see or talk to her anymore. This is just super.
The only things I have to look forward to in life are InuYasha and PopTarts. Is that all my life's come down to- a poorly made Japanese cartoon and pastries? At least I have something.
Oh, and my newt is dead. Life's great, ain't it?