erase.
So, after careful contemplation, I have finally decided to go into my old entries and erase and/or delete any entries with J being mentioned. No, not Joey. I need to release all the trauma. Starting with 2012. It's going to be difficult, but honestly, I'm ready for this next chapter of my life and I'm ready to move on from that. I mean, it's been ten years dude. I think that time will always be in my mind, but this is the first step to my healing process. So, yes this blog will seem a little empty after I delete all the old posts. But, it's for my own good. This heavy burden that I've carried will be a weight lifted off my shoulders. Honestly, I've actually been thinking about deleting this whole blog and starting from scratch. I don't see the purpose in reliving all the things I've done over 15/16 years. I'm 36 now. It's time to move on. This might be the last post of this blog. Everything I've done in the past will stay with me, but those memories are just memories. It's the past that has passed. And with it, I have moved on to the future. It will be difficult to let this blog go since it has been with me since I was 18! It had been my only outlet to express my feelings and thoughts. But, look at it this way, once all the old posts have been deleted along with this blog, I will be able to usher in a new era. I should have done this when I turned 30, but at the time I didn't want to let this go. But, now it's time.