The empty silence in my head matched the emptyness in my heart
Have you ever been somewhere where you didnt feel wanted? I dunno maybe i am just getting more parinoid every day but to me it seems that i have lost all ties with everyone because of one stupid reason or another. I dunno. I have just felt so empty. My birthday was nothing but fighting among me and everyone else. My dad didnt even tell me Happy Birthday and he almost kicked me out again...ON MY BIRTHDAY! I dunno, it wasnt what i wanted. I was hoping that my jinx of bad birthdays would finally be over but i guess not. I didnt get ANY phone calls, except from my mom of course. It just seemed like no one really felt like celebrating my birth. Brandy did the best she could, she took me out to get some Bennigins (sp?) for dinner and Chasity brought over SAW for me to watch and that was all cool...but there was nothing real special. No one seemed to really say..."Hey Cassie, i am really glad that you were born, Happy Birthday!" That is all i really wanted. Just to auctually feel like someone cared about it...but no. Today i got some nice presents from Jonathan. It was cool. Other than that though...i dunno i just would have at least liked a phone call from someone you know?
Things just suck right now. I am just so damn empty right now. If my skin was transparent then you would be able to see right through me. Hollow. I dunno i just hate this. I dunno, i guess since none of you on here really talk to me anymore i should just stop writing on this damn thing anyhow. Its not like anyone on here cares anyway...i mean they always seem to make time for everybody else but when it comes to me it is like...im sorry im busy. Oh well, i guess if this is how you all want it then so be it. I may come on here again...i may not. I dont really know. Later all.