What the F is going On?!?!

Mar 27, 2004 15:37

ok right of the bat. fot those of you who think that that letter "F" is bad get you minds out of the gutter. you filthy filthy people.
and for those of you who thaought that it wasn't... Well you're wrong it is... ha ha lol@you.

ok here it is. my entry for the pleasing of the masses who seem to be foaming at the mouth to read exactly what i am thinking or saying or to at least take a piece of my life thyped here and examine it and keep a little for themselves.

well. my computer is dead. officially. and i am broke. i have 4 dollars in my bank account. please rob me i need the insurance! just, when you mug me, go easy on my face.

getting mugged would be on par for the events in my life. lets see, i have failed one course due to a dissagreement with the professor. i thought he was a %^&*er and he didn't see it that way. so i am using my first grade forgiveness. which is cool because i am now making straight A's for the semester. i have just aced my psychology exam on abnormal psych, a small hobby of mine ever since i met my roomate. and actually most times i prefer him to people who are sopposedly sane. go figure. - i am making better and closer friends with my church group. those of you who didn't know yes. i go to church. crucify me for it. i invite you. just kidding. if you sense a little hostility let me tell you what is wrong. ok...

my brother has been iin town all week since he has been getting his car painted and aparantly the rumor is that the custom black metallic flacek and blackberry flamejob is going to be so sweet he might even go to a few car shows. hurray for him, i can't wait to see it. i was hanging out with him and an old friend of mine "dark arth" he and i have been friends for years. we were having a conversation about ahem. "blunts and nachos" it was a runnning gag and we were laughing histerrically. i finally was having a good time with my brother and my friend whome i hadn't seen in some time. some really long time ...like several months. we go over to ryan's house. he isa student at this great money sucker we all attend and we were hanging out and having a good time talking and eating tortilla chips plain when the general consensus soon becomes to go to a resteraunt. we chose "el Cerro!" the greatest mexican resteraunt in town if you haven't been ther go and if you have then order the white cheese dip. it is the prize of all that is "under a setting sun with a tan". so there we are in the resteraunt and i am so freaking poor so i order the cheapest thing on the menu. the bean side. it is also very freaking filling. i highly reccomend it and if you a lucky and go in at teh right time, then it comes with the white cheese all over it. (i told you that i really liked the resteraunt, what did you expect?) so ryan is my friend and adam's best frined. recently we have been on the outs a little but we get along, sort of. so he starts talking about this book. it is called "The templar Revelation" it is a very crappy book that proceeds to say that jesus was not the son of God but really a prophet and he was in a sex based cult having orgies with mary magdaline to get closer to "god" also that he was a grand hight wizard in this cult called the knight's of the templar. or the messianic knight's thsese people were a tyrannical group of murderers who went around europe and asia and the orient killing people and burning and pillaging and raping. generally nasty peoples. so like they claim that jesus was born in march sometime and that the evidence are mistranslations in the bible. one reference that they use is the greek word for virgin mary didn't mean virgin but actually meant clean or some crap. anyways it is full of pictures of these rituals, yes full of sex, and it also has listings of where they got their information. from supposed historical facts. it claims also that constantine wrote the bible and that he was not a christina when he did it and that he added stuff so that the religion could take money away from rome and ceasar and that peter or paul, i forget which, used to preach all this stuff as a way to make money. catholocism. that all the other denominations are crap as well and that the real teachings of jesus were just to be nice to everybody. that his death was just becasue he was bringing chaos to the peoople and making the romans look like idiots. ( he did make them look stupid and that is probably the only truth to the book). it also says that mary magdaline is the real person i nthe painting by leonardo da vinci the hand fold into a giant "m" and that stands for magdaline and that leonardo da vinci was part of the knight's of the templar and that all of the religious paintings are really not holy representations but are full of hidde3n blasphemy. well i don't know about that but i took considerable offence to the whole thing and tried to defent it with bible quotes. one after another and i go nowhere. aparantly i was without my armor (weak humor, very weak)now i know that i am not the greatest christian in the owrld but i was raised southern baptist and i was offended at this kid calling jesus a slut. so i kept trying to refute him and nothing worked. i also kept getting angrier and angrier. i bet you would too if someone was systematicall tearing apart your religion and trying to spread their madness. Ryan has a terrible hatred for christianity. and i feel sorry for him really. he is very overwheight and alone na dhe will never get a woman while he is liek this. he surges hatred in everything he does and the only thing he has is his car. it is very supderficial in my opinion. but i was not thinking of this at teh time. i just wanted to rip his head clean off and i almost did. wel left the resteraunt and i was being driven home by my frined "D.A." and he kept going and going anf i flt that with every word he uttered he was calling me and idiot and that he was mocking me left and right. i very nearly jumped from the back sseat and clocked him in the head. i wanted to pound him in the back of the head with my bare fists until he was unconcious and then throw him out of the car and pound on his flab and his chubby face and then grab his head and pound that into the cement and then i wanted to go to his porch "which is where we nearly were at the time i was thinking this" and get a large section of muffler piping and proceed to beat him unmercifully with it until he lay bleeding profusley from his ears and tear ducts then i wanted to take that pipe to his car and break it's "T" tops and his windshield and proceed to go to town.
-- i wanted to wreck everything he stood for. --
needless to say i was enraged and since i was in a moving car i was restricted to listing to his every word and i couldn't leave. i hated that situation. i hope no-one i know is ever in this type of situation. i did nothing but utter some very not nice words at him and eveyone in the car and told them to go **** themselves. i went in my room and was cooling off as best i could. i tore a poster that i had to shreds since it was a band he liked and i know he wanted that poster from me. i don't like that band anymore and i wanted to put something else up there anyways. so i went and relazed for a while and i met up with brendan at my house. i told him what had happened " and i was having such a good day too. I had made an A on my exam and i got a reccomendation from one of my teachers for something i wanted and i also got great compliments from another of my teachers so i was having a terrific day", I said. ( don't contest me i know i said it) ;)

so i went to the potry slam and saw a bunh of my friends whiome i hadn't seen in quite a while . i really missed them and i had been too swept up in school and depression and getting out of depression and bad teachers and great teachers and financial worries to go and see them. and besides that brendan hadn't gone in like a month since that crappy job of his was scheduling him during it.he hates it there and they treat him like crap. i would support him if he gave them the finger. if anyone ever deserved it they do. but whatever. he is toogood to do that and well i don't work there. i just gove moral support and listen to his problems at work.
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you might be asking yourself why i still put that i feel good. well i have christina in my corner and everyone i tell this story to tells me that i did right. eccept the two jerks (my brother and his friend ryan) and well i have talked to my grandmother and my mother and i feel good. i realyl do . it is liberating to tell all about this stuff and to see who cares enough to read and comment and who just reads and well i feel good just saying it regardless. i am doing ok. christina says that she thinksd i have lost weight. i don't think so but you can never tell. i just feel really good ad i can't wait to ace my exam on tuesday next week. i have three days to prep. that's plenty. i am getting mre money soon and i will save for another car since well i want one and mine is falling apart from the inside out. i am thankful for all of my friends and for my girlfriend who rides shotgun through all my crap.
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i have been trying to get my hands on a regular nintendo and hav thusfar been unsuccessful. maybe if my grandmother sends me money. i have been swing dancing for two weeks and i am pretty good at it. though i didn't go this past friday since christina wasn't into it. we ended up doing nothing. " ...and leonard, it was everyting i thought it could be." -office space.
i am looking forward to gettimg my passport soon since i have finally gotten my birth certificate. I never knew i was born at 6:43. go figure. now i know when to celebrate exactly. cool.

i went to the beach over spriong break with some of my greatest friends and my girlfriend and i had a blast even though i was bloodied by the ripcurl, twice. yeah man all up my back and on my face too. aske 'em if you know em it was gruesome. but i loved it. had a blast. even got locked out of my car in the middle of nowhere and got in using nothing but a long piece of wire for a gardening bush. weird man. weird.

well it's saturday and i have written all i am going to now. so read it and be happy and if you are mentioned then hurray and if not then, you know i care about you anyways. this means you "con-group".
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so long all... see you when i can.
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