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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
amanda jackson--- i love you and i love your LJ!!!! :D
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i hope you have fun where your going *i forgot the city* lol BUT I BETTER SEE YOU BEFORE YOU GO OMGGGGGGGG that would be so sad if i didnt get to see you before you left!!! :( we were like best friends and if your ass doesnt call me to hang out before you go ill be devistated!!!
ANYWAYS
other then that
i dont really update here anymore i noticed
i got a myspace and im addicted to it
even tho i really dont know how to use it yet
or really what its for
or how your even supposed to manage to keep in contact with people on it
but im learning
but never will i give up my beloved LJ for good
:)
annyywaayyysss
i say.. HAVE A NICE DAY BIIITTCCHH
so... lets see... epiphany*im not really worried about spelling right now*
vanny!! listen carefully.. you can learn well from me
ok... so you have this person right
who you used to hang off of their every word
they were the reason you would get up in the morning
and try to look your best, just IN CASE you ran into them that day
you were always making some sort of excuse to end up seeing them at some point of the day
basically making yourself look like a fool because you "liked" this person sooo much
right?
ok we got that part straight
then... shit goes down
more then once
yet he some how manages to keep you lingering around
your thinking "i still wanna be friends i dont wanna ruin a good friendship"
HA.. and after he establishes something with his "new" girl
he has kept you around for a few more "drunken nights"
riiight riiight?!
k... then... you say "WHAT THE FUCK AM I WASTING MY TIME FOR?!?!"
thats the *epiphany*
soon after that days go by
weeks go by
you dont speak
and the first time you do speak in a really long time... you realize
you never did anything wrong
you never really had a good thing to begin with
because he fucked with you the ENTIRE time
he never really cared about you
because no one that cares about you lies, cheats, and manipulates you that much
the only reason you thought you had a good friendship was because he had to make it seem that way for you to keep banging him
or maybe you did have a REALLY GOOD FRIENDSHIP.. but after he stopped getting laid it didnt really matter to him anymore..
yea thats prally it..
so
anyways
to keep going with the story
you move on
your happy
and you dont think about "omg i hope im not making him mad with what im saying cuz he might not talk to me and i wouldnt want to ruin the friendship"
when in all reality he ruined it in the first place
and you never think about this boy unless hes brought up by someone else... and then you think about the whole thing and your SOOOO happy your not ONE of his girls that come running to his every call
and then you think about it and write stuff like this
and then after writing it you think
"you know what... its kind of sad that we couldnt salvage some sort of friendship out of the whole thing... but it wasnt really my place to keep the friendship alive.. it was his... and if he cant appreciate my friendship or whatever else he had of me in the first place... well then thats his loss"
the end
ms. vanny jean i realize your situation is a lot differnt then mine was because you didnt get MAJORLY played but i jsut want you to pay attention to the getting over it part lol... thats your lesson for today LMAO!!!!! God im such a good counselor to you!! :)
anyways
i feel alot better now
until next time all :)
p.s.
a song that has nooooothing to do with the above story :)
I'm feeling the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the knick of time
I'm riding the highs I'm digging the lows
Cuz at least I feel alive
I've never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good
I'm feeling you