Happy Easter!!
Lately there has been a ton of shit going on...mainly just in my head. I've been procrastinating an update because of the fact that I don't know what I want to say and I'm just all around confused about everything.
I've been trying to be patient with people but it's getting so hard lately. Why are they so blind? and naive! It really bothers me. I can't just sit there and lay out the absolute truth...it's too brutal. But why do I even try?? It's not like I'm being listened to anyways! EDIT: This is not about you...or the person you think it is!!
I HATE the fact that prom is so close. Just the thought of it makes me want to runaway for the freakin weekend so I dont have to deal with it! I've never felt so much pressure to go to something. All the other times it was like..."well if someone asks you it's cool and if not you dont have to go because there will be others". But not this time...this is the last one and apparently I HAVE to go! And I want to but...not by myself! UGH...the thought of this makes me sick. I HATE HIGH SCHOOL!
I also feel really left out of things too. I'm not sure why...but I do. Spring break is coming up and although I get to sleep in...I'm gonna be bored out of my mind! Everyone's gonna leave and I'm gonna be stuck here!!
The end of high school is nearing and that scares me. Most of the few friends that I have will be gone and I'll be stuck here! Going to Clark. WOW...I'm a freakin overachiever!
This sucks....being in this depressed state of mind. I want it gone and I've tried to act happy to make it go away...but it just stays!
Why does everyone have someone and I'm always left out?? I just want to leave!
Whatever I'm done
On a better note: Congratulations to Gunshot Glamour..I'm so incredibly proud of you guys!!! :)
I've been trying to be patient with people but it's getting so hard lately. Why are they so blind? and naive! It really bothers me. I can't just sit there and lay out the absolute truth...it's too brutal. But why do I even try?? It's not like I'm being listened to anyways! EDIT: This is not about you...or the person you think it is!!
I HATE the fact that prom is so close. Just the thought of it makes me want to runaway for the freakin weekend so I dont have to deal with it! I've never felt so much pressure to go to something. All the other times it was like..."well if someone asks you it's cool and if not you dont have to go because there will be others". But not this time...this is the last one and apparently I HAVE to go! And I want to but...not by myself! UGH...the thought of this makes me sick. I HATE HIGH SCHOOL!
I also feel really left out of things too. I'm not sure why...but I do. Spring break is coming up and although I get to sleep in...I'm gonna be bored out of my mind! Everyone's gonna leave and I'm gonna be stuck here!!
The end of high school is nearing and that scares me. Most of the few friends that I have will be gone and I'll be stuck here! Going to Clark. WOW...I'm a freakin overachiever!
This sucks....being in this depressed state of mind. I want it gone and I've tried to act happy to make it go away...but it just stays!
Why does everyone have someone and I'm always left out?? I just want to leave!
Whatever I'm done
On a better note: Congratulations to Gunshot Glamour..I'm so incredibly proud of you guys!!! :)