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so it seems like i aint updated in a year, cuz im going thru so so much right now with getting the custody on me switched over to my granny whos strict and very difficult, trying to get my license, and other things. and now i still cant braces cuz i will have no insurance for them once my custody is switched over, and ill have to save up 5 thousand dollars for the braces + 59847 bucks for the tight'n n all that for them...on top of like 58743857385738 dollars for college and 895743 dollars for my car,car insurance and rent...omg and i cant even get a lame job let alone 1 that pays decent or lets me work much. how the FUCK can i do this?!
brian (not the 1 i went to mall with) wants a 2nd chance to be wtih me
brian (the mall 1) wants to get back together when i move back
jay crunk (we didnt date) now is all sad and shit cuz im moving and refuses to talk to me at all (i saw him and cried today)
my other ex ricky wants me back for the like 4th time
chris is being...loving and wanting to be with me too
I miss tommy the old him i knew and loved, he used to be the greatest now we dont talk and hes like so different
so i have no idea basically
right?
oh and then another boy enters my life from downstate (where im move'n back to) and he begins to like me and all this stuff and hes so sweet and says im gorgeous and beautiful which makes me feel really happy...
and now what? i have no idea what so ever
i cant lead them all on
some wont just be friends with me
what do i fucking do?
i dont want to hurt any1 and i dont want to loose them all in any way
just freaking help me. save me. im becoming nothing but an emo glob of fat wasted oxygen. can you believe all this?!
brian (not the 1 i went to mall with) wants a 2nd chance to be wtih me
brian (the mall 1) wants to get back together when i move back
jay crunk (we didnt date) now is all sad and shit cuz im moving and refuses to talk to me at all (i saw him and cried today)
my other ex ricky wants me back for the like 4th time
chris is being...loving and wanting to be with me too
I miss tommy the old him i knew and loved, he used to be the greatest now we dont talk and hes like so different
so i have no idea basically
right?
oh and then another boy enters my life from downstate (where im move'n back to) and he begins to like me and all this stuff and hes so sweet and says im gorgeous and beautiful which makes me feel really happy...
and now what? i have no idea what so ever
i cant lead them all on
some wont just be friends with me
what do i fucking do?
i dont want to hurt any1 and i dont want to loose them all in any way
just freaking help me. save me. im becoming nothing but an emo glob of fat wasted oxygen. can you believe all this?!