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You know, it's amazing how easily people can piss you off, even the closest of friends...
I do like my friends, really. I try to be open, honest, respectful, all the things I consider in how I want myself treated. I'm a firm believer in treating others how you wish to be treated. But I will admit, on alot of the things I think are proper, I tend to be a hippocrite and end up doing the opposite on occasions, without thinking about it at first. Thus, I'm normally the first to admit I'm being one...
But the main detail, is how I feel. Or more accurately, how little people seem to think about it, sometimes...
now, I admit, I'll occasionally make fun of people. I don't do it alot, especially now adays, considering how often I got teased growing up, but I'll go back and forth with good friends, in good fun, knowing they won't take it personally. But then, I see some people, who will just outright start saying mean or hurtful things, bashing someone because they dislike them alone...
But the best part is, is just how badly people don't think about these ramifications... They bash and make fun of, thinking it is all good fun, while the target is made to feel bad, as well as those who possible can sympathize with the person. And half the time, they wouldn't even know they were doing something wrnog, nor would they even have the courtesy to feel ashamed or at least bad about it, if it was very blatently pointed out to them...
Thus, I am left in a quandry. On one side, I would like to very verbally yell at these people, let them know exactly how I feel, and just go off about it. But then, They are my friends as well, and aside from this problem, I have no wish to make them upset or hurt them either...
Oh well... On other news, I am heading with with a friend from work tomorrow. She's cute, but unsure if taken, thus a little unsure if this would be a date, or not... I guess I am getting a little muddle-headed from my lack of being in a relationship in so long, I can't seem to think without wondering things like that... *shrugs* But at the least, gonna go out and have fun, try and relax for once...
It would be nice to relax again... To not think opening my mouth and stating my opinion will make people pissed, or worry over if I'm doing everyone how everyone ELSE wants it done... Between my back and legs taking the stress physically, and half the time munching full meals out of stress, I'm surprised I haven't gone back into punching inanimate objects again...
But that's neither here nor there... for now, I need to decide how I'm going to deal with this. I'll figure something out, even if it's just keeping my mouth shut, and trying to resist the urge to turn to explicitives at times...
*notes, some may know exactly what this pertains to, and if you do, good for you. While not being blatent and just explaining it out with names and details, I'm not exactly caring if people know what I am refering too*
I do like my friends, really. I try to be open, honest, respectful, all the things I consider in how I want myself treated. I'm a firm believer in treating others how you wish to be treated. But I will admit, on alot of the things I think are proper, I tend to be a hippocrite and end up doing the opposite on occasions, without thinking about it at first. Thus, I'm normally the first to admit I'm being one...
But the main detail, is how I feel. Or more accurately, how little people seem to think about it, sometimes...
now, I admit, I'll occasionally make fun of people. I don't do it alot, especially now adays, considering how often I got teased growing up, but I'll go back and forth with good friends, in good fun, knowing they won't take it personally. But then, I see some people, who will just outright start saying mean or hurtful things, bashing someone because they dislike them alone...
But the best part is, is just how badly people don't think about these ramifications... They bash and make fun of, thinking it is all good fun, while the target is made to feel bad, as well as those who possible can sympathize with the person. And half the time, they wouldn't even know they were doing something wrnog, nor would they even have the courtesy to feel ashamed or at least bad about it, if it was very blatently pointed out to them...
Thus, I am left in a quandry. On one side, I would like to very verbally yell at these people, let them know exactly how I feel, and just go off about it. But then, They are my friends as well, and aside from this problem, I have no wish to make them upset or hurt them either...
Oh well... On other news, I am heading with with a friend from work tomorrow. She's cute, but unsure if taken, thus a little unsure if this would be a date, or not... I guess I am getting a little muddle-headed from my lack of being in a relationship in so long, I can't seem to think without wondering things like that... *shrugs* But at the least, gonna go out and have fun, try and relax for once...
It would be nice to relax again... To not think opening my mouth and stating my opinion will make people pissed, or worry over if I'm doing everyone how everyone ELSE wants it done... Between my back and legs taking the stress physically, and half the time munching full meals out of stress, I'm surprised I haven't gone back into punching inanimate objects again...
But that's neither here nor there... for now, I need to decide how I'm going to deal with this. I'll figure something out, even if it's just keeping my mouth shut, and trying to resist the urge to turn to explicitives at times...
*notes, some may know exactly what this pertains to, and if you do, good for you. While not being blatent and just explaining it out with names and details, I'm not exactly caring if people know what I am refering too*