dear maia, a) about the stress thing, i know exactly what you mean. what upsets me most is a feeling of gliding along in life, a feeling of going through motions for so long without frantic-ness, without hurrying, without spontaneity. i always feel best when i'm like, on my very last string, which i'm not sure is an expression, but i mean like, when i am very busy and there are a million things to do and take care of and i am involved in different things and i feel like being the eye of the storm is the worst, because the eye of the storm is lonely. so i send my empathy and love, and i know that we will rejoin the hurricane soon. b) hahahahahahaha about the nuns. it is true. also, i know what you mean about the someone else deciding they like them more--that's why it's fun to sometimes like someone in such a completely secret way that it is entirely your own thing, and it keeps you up at night sometimes, but it also makes you happy all by yourself, and being happy alone is a weird and sometimes good feeling. or, you could be like me, and tell EVERYONE who you like because you like them so much and are a blabbermouth but it doesn't matter because NOBODY else likes this person. (when i told katrina who he was she actually burst out laughing. oh, katrina.) anyway, i love you maia. and i hope everything gets better. emma
a) about the stress thing, i know exactly what you mean. what upsets me most is a feeling of gliding along in life, a feeling of going through motions for so long without frantic-ness, without hurrying, without spontaneity. i always feel best when i'm like, on my very last string, which i'm not sure is an expression, but i mean like, when i am very busy and there are a million things to do and take care of and i am involved in different things and i feel like being the eye of the storm is the worst, because the eye of the storm is lonely. so i send my empathy and love, and i know that we will rejoin the hurricane soon.
b) hahahahahahaha about the nuns. it is true. also, i know what you mean about the someone else deciding they like them more--that's why it's fun to sometimes like someone in such a completely secret way that it is entirely your own thing, and it keeps you up at night sometimes, but it also makes you happy all by yourself, and being happy alone is a weird and sometimes good feeling. or, you could be like me, and tell EVERYONE who you like because you like them so much and are a blabbermouth but it doesn't matter because NOBODY else likes this person. (when i told katrina who he was she actually burst out laughing. oh, katrina.)
anyway, i love you maia.
and i hope everything gets better.
emma
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