Confused
I love Anthony but sometimes I get confused about what I want out of the relationship . I honestly just don't know how to have a relationship. I was raised around arguing and that is what I incorporate into the relationship. I am still young and don't know exactly where I am headed. My main priority is my daughter but what do I want. I know I want to go back to school but to I truly do want to go back. I like just working and taking care of my daughter but I also want to make more money. Anthony has a college degree but makes the same wages as me, where is the since in that. This whole world is fucked up. Should I just take the leap and say that I want to be with Anthony the rest of my life. See this is what I am not sure of. How do you know that you are suppose to be with someone the rest of you life? I wish I know the answer to that. It's not that I don't want to be with him but I just don't know if I am suppose to be with him forever. It just seems like a long time. When it comes down to it I am just honestly of commitment. I am just not sure how to have a long good relationship. I will just have to learn some how. There is one major problem, I just can't talk to Anthony about my feelings. I can only talk to people that aren't my "boyfriend" I just don't know if it is a title thing or what. I have been burned real bad in the past and I just think I am afraid of getting burned again or trusting someone that close to me. I am trying but I just can't open my mouth and say what I want to say. I love you Anthony and I am going to try to work on shit if you do as well.