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I was reading through some of my past entries and realized I need to just stop thinking about the past and live for today. I have fucked up but I have learned from some of my fuck ups. I need to listen to me and not let people try to get in my head and change me. I have changed a lot through the years but change isn't always bad. I don't know if anybody even reads this anymore but here is an update. Kaelin is 3 and thinks she is 13. She is a drama queen and a bossy little thing. She didn't learn that shit from me....or did she? Shayla is 9 months and growing faster than I thought. She has two teeth and close to walking. Kaelin loves playing with Shayla but gets mad when she takes toys away from her. I try to explain that Shayla is a baby and to young to know how to share and to just deal with it. I currently don't have a job. I can say I finally got out of the hell hole but steped into a deeper hole. It is very hard to stand on your feet when all is gone. Just when you thought you hit the bottom before it gets deeper and harder to get back up. I am pulling all the resources I have and doing what I can to make it. I am trying to keep my head up. The girls defently help push me b/c I need to do it for them and let them have a better life. I just wish I could get rid of my baggage but it will happen one day I guess. This is all I have for now.