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Jan 12, 2007 06:37

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Re: Question rockchic79 January 12 2007, 15:05:29 UTC

i don't mind you asking that. its a combination of both, but mostly i am having some postpartum trouble. i've been to the dr and am taking some meds now- for a while it got better, and right now its bad again (for the last week or two) so i guess i'm going to have to think about a higher dose b/c i don't want my baby to see me feeling so down. here's why i never thought i'd have this problem- because what they warn you about is feeling like offing yourself of your baby, and i don't feel that way at all- it doesn't feel like it has anything to do with the baby, in fact most of my daily joy is Haven-derived. but exhaustion certainly contributes, and my husband and i still struggle with the adjustments, and so on. anyway, i have been to see someone, and i'm working on feeling better. i do need a new jobbie, and some more things to feel good about, but nothing is THAT bad. i appreciate your asking, because alot of my friends are too scared to ask and they will comment all day about a post of keira knightley looking thin but shy away from anything remotely serious. so thanks for checking in :)

Re: Question kittensrule January 12 2007, 15:47:15 UTC

I was way bummed for quite sometime after Sage. There were a few times...in the middle of the night when i was extremely tired that I didn't like her...but then in the morning i would dress her up and i'd be all smiles.

i think my sadness was from where I was...I didn't have a good job..Sage's dad and myself didn't see eye to eye...on nearly anything...i didn't feel loved. We lived in the suburbs. for me..ewwwwwww.

I was so sad...but it faded. I think my friend Jen at the time had so much to do wih me feeling better. She is such a good friend. Still is. man..I need to call that betch.

I hope you feel better!!!!!!!!!!!

Re: Question rockchic79 January 12 2007, 15:52:48 UTC

thanks!! i really haven't ever been upset about the baby, not once. but i think my husband really misses the way things used to be, and that puts alot of pressure on me, to feel like me and the baby are "a situation" to him. thats alot of the trouble. the gym also helps, b/c being fat makes me feel really bad about myself. its just easy to feel defeated when you're so tired!!!

thanks for the good wishes :) i'll make it just fine, but its nice to hear from people who know where this is coming from.

Re: Question kittensrule January 12 2007, 15:55:30 UTC

yeah..i did not like Sage for a couple days. But the nurse told me that was totally normal. And I knew it too...so it wasn't so bad at all.

Yeah...there is the adjustment period. I wonder how Dan and I will be. I want my uterus full!!!! I can't wait to make baby!

Re: Question mom_almighty January 12 2007, 17:34:22 UTC

I'm so glad you didn't take offense. And I'm glad you're taking care of yourself with the doctor and all. I totally agree that what they tell you about postpartum depression isn't necessarily how it feels at all. Between the exhaustion and adjustment period and hormone levels, things get wacky and I'm not sure anybody really reacts the same way. For me, both times it wasn't so much that I felt depressed as that I felt angry and kind of bitter. My temper was short, and I developed a sort of "Why me?" attitude that is really tough to recover from. Mostly it came through as losing my funny. I consider myself a reasonably witty person, and I was finding that I was having a lot of trouble seeing my life and the goings-on at Casa Crisis from a humorous angle. That's when I know I'm in trouble. Things are getting better now, but Gabe is 9 months old, so obviously that adjustment takes time.

Anyway, I hope things improve for you soon, and I'm glad you're taking care of yourself! *hug*

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