It's really irritating...
..when people don't want to say things straight to my face. I find it insulting.
D2 keeps scolding me saying it's my own fault for choosing her as a partner. But I really thought she would make an awesome partner. She's resourceful, smart, efficient. She may be a lil too quiet sometimes and very hard to converse with (trust me, I've been trying for years), but I have always felt she has her good points, and that's what I keep telling d hubby.
Sigh. I dunno what went wrong. Let's start from beginning and maybe we'll see better..
At the very start we brainstormed for ideas. Everyone contributed a lot of names. I had my favourite few and in the end we agreed to go with hers. D2 spent a lot of time drawing and came up with the logo. She sourced for products and I must say, did a damn good job of it (hence why I kept defending her when d2 said I should have chosen someone I know better). She told me to be in charge of advertising/marketing? And she was in charge of orders. But there really isn't much advertising to do. The bulk of the job was taking orders from customers, organising with suppliers once orders are confirmed, and sorting out orders and mailing them out once items have reached.
All of which is done by her.
So she's:
- sourcing for suppliers
- taking orders and queries
- liaising with suppliers AND
- sorting out and mailing items to customers
Initially I was worried it seemed like she's doing a lot. Voiced out many times to redelegate the work. She kept saying she's fine, she's too free at work. But I want to contribute too. This doesn't feel like a partnership. It feels like she is in charge of everything.
I wasn't really angry or anything, just wished I would be included more. So I tried my best to respond to cust as soon as I see notifications. I thought, maybe if I do it fast, then I get to help at least a lil bit. At least I get the orders down for her so she can go ahead and arrange with the suppliers.
It went well.. Until.. She started doing things without informing me or keeping me in the loop. Setting dates without discussing. Closing orders without informing. Etc. I guess it's just her style of doing things, but I always update her when I do anything so I guess I felt sad that she was starting to leave me out. I tried to brush it off and dgn tak tau malu nye still msg as per normal. Then she started not replying my msges, or even if she replied it would sound hostile or can't be bothered.. Like wtv anything up to you.
And now she's blatantly avoiding me. And I have no idea why. I wish she would just say it to my face. At least that way I would know what I've done wrong and can sincerely apologise for it.
Maybe d2 was right. Maybe I really should have chosen someone else. Someone I can talk to and someone who could talk to me and be straight up honest with me (I'm not a mindreader). So yeah, maybe it really is my fault.
Am still trying to hang on, hoping she would start talking to me soon. But I told d2 that if this continues, she can have it. I'm prepared to give it all up. It was supposed to be fun. Not so fun anymore. I don't even mind not getting my money back or the many late hours I've spent staying up for this. Even if we made millions, it's not worth sacrificing my happiness, and d2-dila's friendship. So there.
P/s: I suddenly feel like wearing nothing but a camo nursing bra and pants and biting a grenade teether that would really explode.
D2 keeps scolding me saying it's my own fault for choosing her as a partner. But I really thought she would make an awesome partner. She's resourceful, smart, efficient. She may be a lil too quiet sometimes and very hard to converse with (trust me, I've been trying for years), but I have always felt she has her good points, and that's what I keep telling d hubby.
Sigh. I dunno what went wrong. Let's start from beginning and maybe we'll see better..
At the very start we brainstormed for ideas. Everyone contributed a lot of names. I had my favourite few and in the end we agreed to go with hers. D2 spent a lot of time drawing and came up with the logo. She sourced for products and I must say, did a damn good job of it (hence why I kept defending her when d2 said I should have chosen someone I know better). She told me to be in charge of advertising/marketing? And she was in charge of orders. But there really isn't much advertising to do. The bulk of the job was taking orders from customers, organising with suppliers once orders are confirmed, and sorting out orders and mailing them out once items have reached.
All of which is done by her.
So she's:
- sourcing for suppliers
- taking orders and queries
- liaising with suppliers AND
- sorting out and mailing items to customers
Initially I was worried it seemed like she's doing a lot. Voiced out many times to redelegate the work. She kept saying she's fine, she's too free at work. But I want to contribute too. This doesn't feel like a partnership. It feels like she is in charge of everything.
I wasn't really angry or anything, just wished I would be included more. So I tried my best to respond to cust as soon as I see notifications. I thought, maybe if I do it fast, then I get to help at least a lil bit. At least I get the orders down for her so she can go ahead and arrange with the suppliers.
It went well.. Until.. She started doing things without informing me or keeping me in the loop. Setting dates without discussing. Closing orders without informing. Etc. I guess it's just her style of doing things, but I always update her when I do anything so I guess I felt sad that she was starting to leave me out. I tried to brush it off and dgn tak tau malu nye still msg as per normal. Then she started not replying my msges, or even if she replied it would sound hostile or can't be bothered.. Like wtv anything up to you.
And now she's blatantly avoiding me. And I have no idea why. I wish she would just say it to my face. At least that way I would know what I've done wrong and can sincerely apologise for it.
Maybe d2 was right. Maybe I really should have chosen someone else. Someone I can talk to and someone who could talk to me and be straight up honest with me (I'm not a mindreader). So yeah, maybe it really is my fault.
Am still trying to hang on, hoping she would start talking to me soon. But I told d2 that if this continues, she can have it. I'm prepared to give it all up. It was supposed to be fun. Not so fun anymore. I don't even mind not getting my money back or the many late hours I've spent staying up for this. Even if we made millions, it's not worth sacrificing my happiness, and d2-dila's friendship. So there.
P/s: I suddenly feel like wearing nothing but a camo nursing bra and pants and biting a grenade teether that would really explode.