Feb 21, 2005 21:24
So this is what happened.
Kellen's parents went out of town for the week, and being the amazing couple that we are(and you all wish you were) we decided to have me stay at her house all week. So I stayed one night, which was very nice to me. The next day we went to my house to get me some of my stuff(clothes, laptop, cash flow, ect.) We get back to Kellen's, and right when I am inside her aunt comes in a sees me. Great right? The answer is yes. Sooooooooo, three minutes later Kellen gets a call from her mother, and she knows I am there. Kellen is in deep trouble, and is crying. I am in the other room with her brothers, and sister shooting a zombie. I am called into Kellen's room and I am handed the phone. I am very scared, and so upset with myself at this point it is beyond all reason. I think you guys need to get this straight before I go on. Kellen's mother is ana amazing women, and has been nothing but overly nice to the 18 year old boy in a band, with tattoos that is dating her 16 year old daughter with good grades, and in all AP classes. I have been feeling as if her family was like my second family. Amazing people to say the least. And what I have done is unbelievably irresponsible. So, back to me getting the phone handed to me. So I talk to her mother, and she tells me all sorts of things. Things that hurt like crazy. I must say that the worst was, "Stefan, I trusted you with my daughter." That one sucked. After I got off with her, she yelled at Kellen some more, and I decided that I should leave. I packed my stuff, and instead of going home I drove to a beach. At this beach I sat in a car and cried with a girl that I love. It was amazing in the oddest way imaginable. Kellen's mom then calls Kellen again, and says that I am not to be taken home in her car, because Kellen no longer has a car because her mom has now decided to take it from her. So they get off the phone, and I am stuck on a beach in a car crying with a girl I love, in a car that was just taken away from this girl. I realize that this will most likely be the last time I see her for a while, so I consider telling her that I love her. (I have been feeling this way about her for a few weeks, and I do not want to say it on the phone so why not now?) So I turn her face toward me and say,"Kellen I love you. I really do." And she says,"I love you too." And cries. I of course begin to cry. I decide that I better find a ride off of this beach unless I want to be sleeping on it. So I call Jeff, and he begins to drive to get me. (Thank you Jeff.) Kellen and I decide to go back to her house to wait for Jeff. So we do, and when he gets there I leave shortly after. I leave the house that I might not see in a freaking long time.
I have learned a lot from this. Last week I got very scared about life. And I started to flip out. So I looked to my only soild foundation (Aaron knows what I'm talking about) God, and I asked him to put my life in his hands, and he did. And when you have your life in God's hands he teaches you things in the only ways you will learn them. He saw me so happy, and loving my life, but then he saw me lying and disobeying a person who has put all of her trust into me, and took those big hands that me life was in and slapped me dead in the face with them. I am not blaming God in any way. I am THANKING Him. For I have learned my lesson, and I will not do anything of this sort ever again. My life is still in his hand, and I shall leave it there. I will take all of the blame for my actions, and face any punishment that Kellen's parents put on me and her. I will take this how most people are to afriad to do. And when it's done, well of course my life will be on track, until I do something dumb again which I am sure I will. But I will assure you that it will not be anything close to this situation again. I love you all. - Stefan
P.s. Sorry if this sounds too dramatic, but everything in here is the truth, and that is all that I tell.