crazy
Wow I learned so much about myself today. i signed up to do lighting strick for "arms and the man" -basically just taking down all the lights that are not needed for the next show. Ok so... this is the scariest thing ever. The lights are situated above the set.. about 2 stories above the set. the thing that we had to walk on is this net.. 2 stories above the ground. yah.. so anyone that knows me and heights knows that this is not a good combination. I climb all the ladders and get to the top.. and put a food on this net- which feels similar to stepping on the springs of a mattress really.. and I start crying. I almost went down and gave up.. but forced myself to stay up there. Everyone else is walking across the net willy nilly, and i'm gripping the side for dear life. the guy that was up there helped me deal with it though- and made sure i was ok.. geeze. One of the girls that was up there drew an interesting parallel though. being up there was very much like our relationship to God. He is there, he is holding us up and there is no need to worry.. but many (including me) are holding onto the edge- TERRIFIED that each step could give way to a terrible fall. What an experience. After about an hour and a half up there i was able to walk around without gripping the side rail.. i still didn't venture towards the center, but i think the next time i go up things will be much happier.. i hope. XD Today was a good day.. i'm going to finish this project, go to practice, and tomorrow start bugging everywhere i can think of looking for internships.