Did I forget to thank you for the ride? I hadn't tried, I tend to run away and hide...
I guess I must apologize. I keep saying I'm going to write in my LJ and then I never do except for every couple of months when I just randomly get on and just bitch. This entry really isn't an exception.
Y'know, I just wish someone had told me some things ealier in life. I suppose people (like my parents) did, but I guess I didn't listen. I wish someone would have smacked me over the head and told me to grow up and appreciate what I have and be greatful for everything I have... and everything I don't have. For instance...
-I wish someone had told me that the internet is NOT the most important thing in the world. Or that your internet 'status' does not define you as a person or a friend, or anything really. If someone doesn't follow you on Twitter or you're not on someones top 8 on MySpace does not mean you're a worthless human being that should spend the rest of your miserable failure life inside you're house alone, complaining.
-If you want to make friends, you have to put yourself out there. It may be scary at first, but it will be worth it in the end. When I moved to Richmond I knew my roomate. I Knew that I couldn't rely on just her so I went out and met some other great people. I also got caught up in more drama then I care to remember, but I found out who my true friends were and I learned some important lessons along the way. Also, if you feel left out of a group, make a move. Invite someone, or multiple somones over for a BBQ or out to lunch, etc. Chances are you all will have a good time and people will thing to include you next time. If they don't? Fuck 'em. They think that they can get along with out you, so why should you feel differently?
-Nobody, and I mean NOBODY cares about you as much as you do. No one is going to look out for your well being as much as you do. Or atleast they shouldn't. Your family and friends should be supportive and wonderful but they can't live your life for you. You should try to please others when possible but mostly you should make sure you're pleasing yourself. In a stressful situation if theres going to be someone at the end pissed off, you should make sure that person isn't you. I'm not saying to be an ignorant, selfish douchebag, but everyone else is only looking out for themselves.
-It is just completely FINE to like things that other people don't. Its okay to be 23 years old and still love the Disney Channel (Yes, I said it.) Its okay to still love the same band you loved when you were a teenager. Why should you pretend to like things just because other people like them? To please other people? Why can't you just do what makes YOU happy? I'm not saying I'm a big fan of say, gospel music but if thats your thing then blast it from the rooftops. Dance to it in your car and smile and wave at the loser staring at you from the car next to you.
-Mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes. If you are human, you make mistakes. Smile and carry on with your life.
-Your adolescence is not the most important thing in the world nor will it be the best or most memorable part of your life (usually.) Just do the stupid homework and speeches in front of the whole class. You're all going to get up there and talk to fast, say the words "Um, Uh, Well, So" like 50 million times and you're all going to stutter. Get over it. Also, you don't have to belong to a "group". You can be a cheerleader and wear black nail polish and listen to rap music. Also, that nerdy boy with the glasses and braces will grow up to be a handsome millionaire. Go for him instead of the jock who will spend the rest of his life trying to get the women he could get in high school when he didn't have the beer gut.
-Finally, treat everyone with respect unless they've proven not to be worthy of it. It doesn't matter if its a boy, girl, black, white, gay, straight, skinny, fat, foreign, etc. Everyone appreciates respect and kindness, and that person could become a good friend.
Puh-lease I'm begging evberyone to go out and live life to the fullest. I know I'm not really the person to be giving that advice, its just that I'm almost 24, I pretty much have hated my life for the past year and I feel like everyone was judging me because I was sick and looked different. Maybe they were and maybe they weren't. But I've decided I shouldn't give a shit. And neither should anyone else.