Reality is a fickle freind
So for the past, i am going to say 4 days i have been having these dreams...these horrible wretched dreams of things that never happened involving people that it would never happen with including, car chases, trains, kisses, reuniting and things of the sorts. What I hate about these dreams is that it fills me with this warm, false hope that disappears as soon as my eyes open and reality slaps me like i just did her sister. These make me happy, so happy...and I do not want that feeling to go away, it is like i want to sleep forever just to have that feeling back and be with the person in the dreams...either that person is the central topic, or a big side part but there nonetheless...why must this happen? This should be done and over with, i have enough things to worry about without these goddamn dreams of mine...I need something new, i need something warm that I can feel and scare away these dreams and i can be once again, in control of life and in control of what happens around...I have not had that in a long time. Once again, with all things, it could be alot worse and this would amount to a moundfull of shit to what other people are going through and in retrospect, I should be cool with what I got, but if the point of lj is not to bitch about stupid things while trying to write pretty....then I do not even wanna be on lj anymore