the run down
so dannys flight was supposed to come in at 448 on friday, but no... he got here round 853 i think... and we didnt get home til like 11 after searching down the bag and stuff... we came home and slept... saturday night we decided to take the acid we got... so at 630 pm we put the first candy under our tongue.. i was nervous about taking both at one time... you know this was our first time and we really didnt know our tolerance... we went to blockbuster to get a movie and by then i decided it would be ok to eat the second one too... so round 7 ish we took the second one... at like 730 we got all giggily and sillly... we just layed alot... we watched the ceiling alot... and shadows... i found it was really easy to just close your eyes adn not really roll but get really horney... like the drug totally took over everything... we layed there grinding for hours while we just looked around like we had never seen this apartment before... we were tripping hard and we didnt know how hard we really were... it came on really slow kinda like wow i hope this does something more than this... oh boy did it... danny and i were laying on our sides for hours just looking at eachother and after like 4 hours of doing this we though of a game... we got our faces really close and were staring into eachothers eye... i got reeeeeeeelly close adn was staring as hard as i could into his pupil... watching it turn all like a cat pupil then big and round again it was neet... til (my side) my eye rolled back into my head, staring at him was taking my breath away and i felt like i couldnt breathe and i blacked out... danny caught me just before i fell offa the bed... he kinda scratched me while he was trying to catch me and it woke me up... very powerful... danny said my whole eye went red and rolled back... htats all he knows... after we got all that worked out and neither of us could really explain it... danny decided he needed to pee... while he was walking to the bathroom he zoned off on something and totally blacked out... he hit his head hard against the wall and went down to the floor in a very stiff pile... his eyes were open and looking right at me... his jaw was locked and he wasnt breathing... i shook him and yelled at him til he started talking to me again... we sat there for a second calming down until he thought he was ok... i told him that if ANYTHING else freaky happens we are callin misti... he said he was fine but he still had to pee... so i help him up and walk him to the potty... he sits down, i make sure he is ok... i turn around and hardly got out of hte bathroom to run get the phone "just in case" you know... and hte second i turn around i hear a huge fuckin bang... i go back into the bathroom just in time to watch dannys face hit the bottom of the tub... he busted his lip and htere was blood but i couldnt tell if he had busted his lip only or if he had hit his nose or teeth or anything...he had fallen offa the pot and lay mangled again... this time his little body was all twisted and really scary... his jaw was chattering and stiff, his muscles were tight and i couldnt manuver him to relax or put him a different way... i was screaming at him to breathe or move or something... the whole time he was staring right at me... i drag him onto the carpet and put the fan on high... his body went from totally ridged to a lump when i started to pull on him... (he has a cold with a fever and it must have been getting really hot in here)... but i call misti and tell her to come now... she leaves the house without a word to robby (thanks by the way for coming in such a rush)... but right after i get offa the phone i give him bread and water and clothes and he slowly comes back to normal.... so we could call misti and tell her not to really rush but do come on over and make sure we are ok... it really scared me... worse than anything in the world... i was sure he was gonna die... i mean the look of terror in his face... and him not breathing... omg... i didnt know what to do... i had kinda caught him as he fell offa the toilet and into the bathtub but only caught his neck with my fingernails... kinda scratched him but hes ok... so misti got here... and we were back to normal... danny was still really pale and i know i was shaking and still freeking out... i couldnt calm down... after she left we just layed there looking at the ceiling... not really talking... we didnt really talk all night long.. he jsut stared at me and i stared off... maybe after another hour of so (its like 2 am by this point) i ask him what all he could remember of those like 5-10 minutes... he said he could hear everything i was saying to him (yelling rather) but he couldnt respond... his ears were ringing and he wanted to get up and be ok but knew he couldnt... all i remember thinking over and over hte whole time is htat i have just gotten him back and now i was gonna lose him forever... ive been told taht we didnt black out... maybe i didnt in reality but i know the "black out" in my head was real and i was falling... and danny totally went unconsious... that wasnt tripping at all... he was gone... the look of terror is burned into my memory... when i blink i see it... i see him... laying on the floor a huddled stiff pile twitching... staring up at me pleading for help with his eyes and a grin covering his face... around 330 am we decide to try to rest... danny wants to sleep.. i was worried about that with all his head hitting and stuff... so i let him drift off and i layed and watched his back rise and fall for probably 2 hours, nudging him every once in a while to make sure he could still wake up... it kinda made me reconsider some drugs... i dont like being that not in control of myself... i cried for hours after htat... i think i kept my compsior as best i could while danny was around... but for the rest of the evening whenever i went into the bathroom i saw him falling... i mean had i not turned around for that second i would have been in there and i could have caught him... but i wasnt... i know how much mushrooms i can handle, but i wonder how i would be able to handle something like that... i dont ever want to run into a problem like that... i dont think acid is a drug for me... i am glad i know tho... ugh... im gonna go wash off hte party/sex... thats all i can remember right now... if i think of soemthing else it will be posted...